Ah, snow...

I've forgotten how beautiful a snow-covered mountain looks...went snowtubing yesterday at Cyprus, and that's the first thing I thought of when I got there...it was beautiful...man, I really do like winter; actual winter, not this dinky Vancouver raining-during-christmas winter...

But that's besides the point...just wanted to talk about the snowtubing!

So anyways, this was my first time snowtubing, and I must say that I had fun...it wasn't terribly thrilling like downhill ski / snowboarding, but fun nonetheless...even waiting in line to go down the hill was nice and relaxing, just staring at the snow-covered trees, watching as little ice crystals fall from the sky...and I had a good time with every out there too, haha...

Which reminds me, Nicole friggin threw a snowball right at my friggin chest, and let me tell you, snow down your shirt isn't a nice feeling, especially when you're blindsided! But it's all good, I was laughing through most of it anyways, lol...

Hmmm, now that I think about it, I've never been to Cyprus besides yesterday...hmmm, I've never been to Grouse or Seymour either...anyways, I was surprised that Cyprus was so close! It's less than an hour away, and I've never been there?! That boggled my mind...and then it got my mind to thinking, why the heck don't I ever go up there? I want to go every week now! Snow is awesome!

Although I had a good time, coming back home was a nightmare...it was about 4 when we stopped tubing, and I got home at quarter to 8...the hassles of not having your own car, I guess...well, the gist of it was that my dad couldn't leave to pick me up 'til late, and traffic both ways was a nightmare...

But what the heck, why focus on the negative when I had such a great time, eh? Snow is awesome! Screw everyone and their "Oooh, I don't like driving in the snow," I want it to snow in Richmond like it did all those years ago...I want snow big enough to be measured in metres! Schawing!

But I'm rambling...

Happy New Year everyone!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Niiiice

Well then, it's been a pretty good couple of days...

[Edit: Man, I ramble way to much on my blogs...read at your own risk (of falling asleep and hurting your head when it smashes into the keyboard, lol...)]

To start off, boxing day I slept in fairly late, but was still dragged along by my mom and sister to drive them to go shopping...it was the first time I've ever gone shopping on boxing day, and man, was it ever crazy! There were like lineups everywhere, the mall was packed...what a sight! And, being the brilliant man that I am, I didn't bother driving around for a parking space, I just followed this one guy right from the entrance to his car...parking took me three minutes! I'm a frickin genius! Haha...

Anyways, I ended up buying a couple jackets / sweater things, and I also bought myself FFI&II:DoS, which is pretty cool...however, upon opening the game at home, I realized that I didn't wanna spend my entire winter break playing videogames, as I would normally do, but more on this later...

Monday, I also slept in fairly late...actually, most of that day was kind of a blur, but I do remember going to the minischool potluck thing at Melody's place...however, it turned out that more than the minischool were invited, and when I walked in, there were like 20+ strangers seemingly staring right at me, and man did that feel akward! A little while later, say an hour or so, a few other people I knew started coming, and it was nice talking to everyone again...Kris showed up, but Rob didn't! That bastard! Haha...but oh well, the party was alright...

Today, I woke up relatively early, around 11:30ish...watched the replay of the 3rd period of U.S. world junior game yesterday, and that was pretty cool...8 goals in 7 minutes! That's awesome! Haha...after that, my sisters got me to play Cranium Turbo with them, and I guess that was kinda fun...although, I didn't like wasting 2 hours of my day when I could've been gone! But that's alright...

After that, I decided to finally get a haircut...however, my normal $10 haircut place was closed for the holidays, so I went to the Magicuts in Lansdowne...it was pretty cool, my hairdresser/barber has a daughter in McNair, in the minischool, so we got to talking about that...it was kinda strange, 'cause I'm not normally that talkative when I'm getting a haircut...however, she tricked me into getting it cut really short! I told her I wanted the #2 on the sides, and leave 1 1/2 inches on the top...however, she somehow managed to trick me into only leaving an inch on the top, and it looks so short now! Every time, I want to leave the top a bit long so it'll grow in nicely, but every time something happens to make it get cut really short! Bah! lol...But oh well, it's just a haircut, it'll grow back...

After my haircut, I wandered the mall for a while trying to call up people to see what they're up to...one problem though, I don't have very many phone #'s yet! Haha! What good's having a phone if I'm not able to call anyone! But moving on, of the #'s that I did have, only one person was able to go hang out tonight! That was kinda annoying but oh well, haha...I did have a fairly interesting evening with Krystle though, and it was nice to get outta the house and not stay at home and play videogames all winter, which was the whole reason of me trying to phone everyone today...

Anyways, I started driving around richmond for a bit, then I went to pick up Krystle at her house in vancouver, then we decided to go back to richmond...we ended up going to RPM, thinking that we'd get something; however, Krystle didn't find the lemon chicken she wanted, so we decided to leave...therefore, I braved the RPM parking lot for no good reason whatsoever! haha...but anyways, we decided to just go eat at richmond centre...

After fooding, there wasn't really much else to do except drive aimlessly around richmond for a while...one interesting place to note was that we drove around steveston, and we did stop at that wharf place on river road...it's pretty cool out there, the boards were all frosted over, so we were sliding away...I think we should all go out there more often, it's a nice place to hang out, lol...anyways, after pretty much running out of places to go in richmond, we decided to go drive aimlessly around vancouver, just as a change of pace...actually, we then decided to drive to UBC, to talk to our friend who lives on Campus...so after getting lost a bajillion times, we were actually able to find Gage tower, lol...man, when I actually start going to UBC, I'm gonna have to study the map for hours just to know where I am in that frickin' place...but anyways, we met up with Alan downstairs, had a nice little chat for a while...didn't go up to his apartment though, but that's alright...but man, does he ever have a nice view...3/4 of his viewing space is open ocean, and apparently the sunsets are spectacular...But anyways, no going off on tangents, lol...

After talkin' with Alan, I drove Krystle home, then I went home myself...all in all, it was nice to talk to her and such, and we had a good time driving around town and all that...too bad I couldn't find anyone else to come along too...but that's okay, I did have fun tonight, and it beats staying at home playing videogames all day!

Oh, and that reminds me, I get to go Snowtubing on thursday! Mega awesomeness to the max! lol...however, the whole cabin-with-5-girls-and-myself thing for new years fell through, which kinda sucked...so in that case, everyone to Cindy's place for new years! Boo-yah!!! Heh...

Anyways, being that it's past 3am, and I have run out of things to bore everyone with, I think I'll stop before I start rambling on about nothing for another hour! Oh man, that reminds me, I'm gonna have to wake up early tomorrow to help clear some hedges or something...nuts! lol...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Merry Freakin' Christmas!!!

Hooray for everything!

I can't believe how quickly the christmas spirit can come back in just a few hours! I'm so friggin happy right now!

I actually got a frickin phone! A FRICKIN' PHONE!!! That's awesome! I couldn't believe it, because for the past few weeks my mom kept going on about how I wouldn't be able to get a phone this christmas...no money and what not...but wouldn't you know, I open up my present this morning, and BAM! there was a phone! SCHAWING!!!

All that junk that happened yesterday, it doesn't matter, I probably just overexaggerated the situation in my head anyways...BUT I GOT A FRICKIN' PHONE!!! Who cares anymore!!! Hooray for everything!!!

And it's exactly the kind of phone I wanted too! Camera phone, but nothing terribly fancy, flip phone, but not a weird kind...OHH YEAH!!!

Actually, now that I think about it, it's not just because I got a perfect christmas present this year that's making me feel so happy...it's more about the fact that my mom tricked me into believing that I would have to wait, but then got the phone for me anyways! I love my mom! I kinda feel bad about yelling at her yesterday about unimportant stuff, but I know she understood...and she got me a frickin' phone! NIIIICE!!!

Oh, and as a side note, I decided to get a game on my phone...what game, you might ask? Why, Billiards, of course! SCHAWING!!! Okay, so it's a fairly dinky game, but whatever, it's still pool! And it's still on my new phone! MY NEW FRICKIN' PHONE!!!

Okay, so I'm probably boring everyone right now, so I'm off to tinker with my phone...hehe...

Oh yeah, I almost forgot! My phone number!

604-809-0714

But no weirdos that I don't know try to phone me up, ya hear? And no prank calls! [and yes, I do know that by saying that everyone will prank call me now...hehe]

Hehe, actually spent the last 10mins with my phone, maybe I should finish off this post first, eh? Lol...I HAVE A FRICKIN' PHONE!!! SCHAWING!!!

Until next time, I guess...PHONE!!!


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert...with a PHONE!!!

p.s. - PHONE!!! SCHAWING!!! NIIIIIICE!!! lol...Merry Freakin' Christmas everybody!

Merry Freakin' Christmas...

Stupid everything...

It's amazing how backing the car into a freakin telephone pole can crush your christmas spirit...

It's not even that I crashed the car, it's not that bad...it's just the fact that nobody cared enough to ask if I was alright...everyone in the freakin family party was just making fun of me behind my back...do you know how much that hurts?! I'm fucking crying right now...

I don't even know how I backed into the pole...well, it was dark, I had to cross two lanes of traffic backing out of their driveway, and I still had that headache from earlier...it made a dent in the bumper, and it's a little loose, but that's all...but that's not the point...

The point is that it's freaking christmas...everyone's supposed to be loving and caring, especially family...but nooooo...let's all just laugh at stupid justin...har dee freakin' har...

The only one who asked if I was okay was my uncle, and he already left the party...he just phoned me a few minutes ago asking if I was okay...I swear, it seems like the only one who cares sometimes is my uncle...I don't think I can count on anyone else in my family...I thought I could, but not after tonight...

This sucks. It's christmas. Good times and cheer and what not. But not for me...It's strange, but lots of christmas songs sound really depressing right now...I mean musically, they just sound depressing...lots of minors and stuff...even my favourite christmas carol, Do You Hear What I Hear, got me depressed...right when it hit the minors...

But whatever...hopefully I'll start to feel better tomorrow...big christmas music thing for church...maybe my headache will go away too...

Christmas was always such a good time of year for me...I'm starting to think that I've just been fooling myself...I just want to crawl into a gutter and lie in the rain for a day or two...I feel terrible...

I hope everyone else's Christmas is going better than my own...everyone deserves to be happy...

Merry Freakin' Christmas everyone...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Ornie Focker!

Haha, Meet the Fockers was hilarious! I haven't laughed that hard in quite a while...but I might as well start at the beginning...[edit: Warning! Long and Boring Blog Ahead!]

First of all, I did end up sleeping for a few hours, but I did wake up early to study before my test...it was kinda weird, because although my body was tired (i.e. droopy eyes, etc etc), my mind was still so hyper! Kinda weird...but anyways, I ended up getting to school at 7am for some last-minute cramming, but after about 20mins of straight studying, my mind still felt too hyper...too hyper to concentrate, which is not good when you have a frickin final exam in less than an hour! So to calm my mind, I started to write out the things that popped into my head on the chalkboard...then, that went over into writing song lyrics, and that calmed me down...my writing was like chicken scratches though, I don't think anyone could've read it, lol...oh, they were by Vroom, "Untitled" and "Tigers" before the test, then "Dumb Like That" afterwards...

Speaking of my test, it went fairly well...hopefully I got my 80 something percent so I could keep my A+, but I'm having my doubts...not that it really matters all that much I guess...and A would be perfectly fine, shouldn't get too worked up over it...I made my choices...but enough of all this schooling junk, the day hasn't even started yet!

After Shar got out of her test, we, along with Jake, decided to go play pool (of course) ...also, we got Jamieson and Andrew to come along as well, which was pretty cool...so we played pool for a few hours, and that was a blast...pool is always fun, but I don't know, it just felt a little bit cooler today...maybe because of the fact that I'm finished with schooling this semester! Woo!! ...or, maybe it was because it was a (seemingly) smaller table, I don't know...haha...

So after the poolage, we went to the mall to get a bite to eat...two cheeseburgers for less than $2 is pretty cool, especially when you get a bunch of McNugget sauces for free...except when I asked for water, they gave me this tiny little baby-sized cup! It was rediculous! But that's okay...we saw Sheena and Caitlin and friends carolling for Salvation Army today, and that was pretty cool...I was thinking of joining, but then I heard them sing like 20 different verses of the carols that I've never even heard before, so I kinda was a little discouraged, haha...maybe next time I'll prepare myself and study the songs!

Anyways, after we finished eating we kinda just hung around for about an hour, and that was pretty cool...actually, I heard quite a bit of previous gossip of the crew that happened "before my time", and that was pretty interesting...actually, this gossip, well, "reminiscing", started during pool...but anyways, the point I'm trying to make here is that it was cool to kinda know what exactly has been happening with my friends...even my peripheral friends...oh, and Ahmad came by as well and hung out for a bit...it was about this time that I started to feel pretty tired, probably my lack of sleep catching up...oh who knows, maybe my coffee was just starting to wear off, lol!

Oh, I almost forgot the most important thing tonight...Lucas actually phoned Shar! Hooray for her! So, after a lot of fussing, she ended up getting Lucas to go to a movie with her tonight...well, more on this later...

Moving right along, after hanging out for a while, Ahmad drove the three other guys home, and I came along for the ride thinking that I'd go home as well...Shar stayed at the mall, since she had to meet up with Lucas...ooooh, walking in the mall alone with Lucas...wooo!! Anyways, after Ahmad dropped them off, we went back to the mall, thinking I'd just get dropped off on the way to silvercity (since Ahmad was watching the movie with them also, so it won't feel so akward or something)...however, when we met up with Shar and Lucas (and Lucas' friend Joel, more on that later), we found out that they were just going to watch it in the mall! So, after borrowing money from Ahmad, I decided to come watch the movie as well...I think at about this time I started to get my second wind, probably because I knew I had to stay up to watch the movie, hehe...

However, the movie didn't start for a while, so Ahmad, Shar, and I were just wandering the mall for a while, then we decided to just sit and chat it up, "people watch" a bit, that sort of thing...all this while Lucas and Joel finished up some last-minute christmas shopping...oh yeah, we also saw Reuben and May-Belle, they were christmas shopping also...that was cool to see them there...

Oh, and as it turns out, Joel actually went to McNair with me! Not only that, he was my friggin teammate on the Ultimate team! That's so weird, because it turns out that he's been friends with Lucas since like grade 2...it really is a small world after all!

At about half an hour before the movie started, we met up with Lucas and Joel in the food court, as they were eating...and the funniest thing, Joel is like a frickin clone of Ahmad! Same humor, etc etc...it was hilarious! They really hit it off! Actually, it started to be kinda funny-funny, because Ahmad and Joel did all the talking (and joking), so Shar and Lucas never really had a good chance to talk and stuff...but it was unintentional, so what can you do...hehe, Lucas did seem kinda uncomforable though, but was it the "Man, why did all these friends have to come, I wanted to be alone with Shar!" kind of uncomfortable or was it more of the "Man, I'm so embarrassed, my friend won't shut up!" kind, haha...And yes Shar, it can be the first one! Lol!

Anyways, after this chatting, we went to see the movie...and man, was that movie ever hilarious! Meet the Fockers! Jeez, I haven't laughed like that in sooo long! There's so many good parts, but I always forget them! This always happens too...the first time I watch a good movie, I only remember that it was really good, and not any details (i.e. Team America...if it weren't for others, I'd have forgotten everything...), and in Meet the Fockers, I don't remember anything except for the taped thingy at the end..."just remember, you're uncle's a *poop sign*!!" LOL!!!

Anyways, after the movies, we said our goodbyes, and went home...and that was pretty much my day! Man, was it ever a long day...lol, so I guess that means it was a long blog too, hehe...although, looking back, it doesn't seem very entertaining...but that's okay; because I had a pretty good day overall, I just wanted to record everything so I'll be able to come back to this later on and be able to reminisce, lol...

That being said, it's well past 1am now, and I've been blogging / msning for nearly 2 hours now, so I think it's time for me to stop...and man, I'm actually super tired right now...practically no sleep for the past three days, I guess...oh man, that' s right, no school! That means I can sleep in super late tomorrow! haha!

Oh wait, that'd just ruin my sleep schedule, lol...I'll just wake up whenever I wake up then...but enough of this! I'm getting off! Hooray for everything!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: Well, it's the next day...and, well, I kinda woke up at 3pm, lol...there goes my sleep schedule! Haha...but oh well, at least I got a good nights rest...although, I do have a slight headache, probably from oversleeping, lol...Merry Christmas / Happy Holidays yous guys!]

STUPID COFFEE!!!

Stupid coffee! I was so friggin hyper tonight, I don't know why...it was just one large coffee, don't normally get so hyper...maybe I drank it too fast or something, lol...I did get a stomach ache initially, haha...

But whatever, the point is that it's 12:30am, I'm still freakin bouncing off the walls (or at least drumming away on everything in sight), and to top it all off I got my Econ final at 8am! What the heck! I'm thinking I'm just gonna do my studying tonight, then cram a bit before the test or something...but I don't know, I'm still so hyper from the coffee...shouldn't have drank it, but oh well, I thought I needed it to stay up and study, lol...

Anyways, besides that, my math final was okay, the test was fairly straightforward, so hopefully I'll still be able to get my A-...And I do feel quite a lot better now, not so depressed and junk, so that's good...

As a side note, I kinda really want a job...the problem is, my hours are going to suck tremendously next semester, with the me at surrey on wed. and having classes everyday of the week...plus fri. night / sat. morn. is out as well, so that leaves me with only sunday, possibly sat. night during the winter nights, thursday nights, and wed. during the day...not a very good availability for one who is looking for a job...I'm not even able to get a frickin job at wendys, as I believe I have said before...

But why the heck am I thinking that far ahead when I still have a finals to take in about 7 hours?! I still gotta study for this test, get enough sleep, etc etc...stupid missing the last two weeks of class then realizing later that I've never done any of that stuff yet in my previous course...if that makes any sense, lol...but I think I'll do just fine...considering I got close to freakin 90% the first time I took Micro, I should damn well be able to pull off an A+ the second time around...

Which reminds me...I always feel embarrassed to talk about my marks, because it always seems to segregate me from my friends...work-wise, we're about the same, but marks-wise, that's another story...and it's kinda hard to be pissed off when I don't meet my own standards when other people around me are failing...it just seems rude...

Others: "I did so bad on my test!"
Me: "Yeah, I didn't do so great on mine either...so what did you get on your test, if you don't mind my asking?"
Others: "I got 42%..."
Me: "Oh...that sucks..."
Me Thinking: ("Man, I got 72%...why should I complain...")

Actually, now that I think about it, I don't even know why I'm really talking about it, because it's still embarrasing to talk about my marks...and to all those who say I should be proud of my marks, I say whatever...I'd rather be average...that's why Doug was my hero...doo doot doo doot doo doot dooo doot doo doot doot!

Wow, that was random...probably the coffee, lol...

Holy crap, I've been writing for nearly half an hour! That's crap! I'm supposed to be studying for my final! ARRGHHISH!!! I always spend way too much time on my blog...but oh well, keeps me sane! hehe...

Hopefully I can get my eighty-something percent on this test so I can get an A+ in the class...I feel like it would be so embarrasing if I got anything less...but like I said earlier, I already feel embarrassed talking about it...

That's it! NO MORE PROCRASTINATING!!! STOPPING NOW!!!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Waste of a day...

I feel like I completely wasted my day...I got practically no studying done...I ended up socializing for most of the day, which in and of itself isn't bad, but not when I gotta study for finals...I just ended up being depressed once again at the end...

Don't really have much to say now...was thinking of putting up lyrics, but I couldn't decide on a song...I've run the gammot, with everything from linkin park to sister hazel to dogwood, but I didn't find anything that was completely relevant...

However, I did end up coming across a song I haven't listened to in a while, a song that is completely awesome, and that really took me back...I ended up doing an essay for grade 12 english about this song, ended up getting a big fat 10/10...the only time I remember getting that high of a mark in english...made me realize that I'm an awesome english student, as long as I'm interested in the subject...

And was I ever interested...this song really struck a chord with me, a crazy punk ballad that was also surprisingly melodic, with meaningful lyrics that pierced right through me...I can't imagine how relevant the song could have been to me in grade 12, but I remember that this song really stuck out...alls I can say is that it's simply amazing, no matter that everyone else I know who's heard it disagrees...

"The Rise and Fall of Belinda and Ivan"

by Dogwood

She said she'd stick with him

Until the very end,

He believed what she said

When she said that she would...

For better or for worse

That was the oath decreed,

Two years later divorced because of speed...

"Pull through"

"Work it out"

They all cried,

To no avail,

To no surprise,

Two calloused hearts

Could no longer try...

Although loved and supported

She continued to die...

By her choice,

All alone,

Her drug addiction

Has destroyed the home...

She lives her own life

By her own greedy will,

Death's grip enslaves her

And flaunts the kill...

Husband left staring at her sunken face

He weeps to himself,

"I showed her no grace!

I had every chance to swallow my pride

And tell her how beautiful she was inside..."

What have I now but memories

Death's taken the wife given to me...

We're both alone

And none to blame

Now she's gone

And the sadness turns to pain...

I'll never be the same...

Oh jeez, now I remember why this song meant so much to me...I know exactly why...now I'm depressed...although I am kinda glad I heard it again...it really is an amazing song...

But all that aside, I must say that dogwood is an amazing punk band. Very melodic, and very punk. They have so many awesome songs...I want to list all the ones I like, but there's gotta be at least thirty...but my favourites are probably Belinda/Ivan, Mycro, Lapchild, In The Line Of Fire, The Truth About It Is, Stairway to Sin, and of course Preschool Days...see, and those are just my favourites! So many other awesome songs from such an awesome band...

But enough ranting about how great Dogwood is, although this has been a fairly nice distraction...

Well this is crap, it's 2 in the frickin morning and I have yet to do the only thing I had to do tonight...still have to print out the stupid practice finals for math, and I've procrastinated for hours...should do that now...

Man, I thought that after I was through last week I'd actually be happy, no more english and all that, but no, it's been exactly the opposite...thought that the two parties over the weekend would push me over the top into happy land, but no, it's been exactly the opposite...hopefully this doesn't affect my final-writing...hopefully, I'll end up using school as an escape, a focus from all the other junky distractions...junky, junky distractions...

But enough of this blog writing, at least I can stop this one junky distraction...

Until next time, I guess...

--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: It's 4am, but I finished printing out the practice finals...surprisingly, I'm feeling quite a bit better after talking to some friends, especially Ahmad just now...actually, that's kind of the primary reason why I stayed up so late, haha...kinda bad that I'm being so social during finals, but meh, I can't see myself doing that badly in these exams, so whatever...hehe, I say that now, but during the test...hehe...anyways, it's now quite late, and I no longer have any excuse to stay up, so I'm going to sleep! Hooray, I get to have practically no sleep for the next few days! Yay!]

Ahhh....?

Well, I was kinda having a blah day...waking up late, lazing around, still feeling kinda bad from last night...not to mention me getting an e-mail from that girl's mom...that was kinda freaky...actually, it scared the hell outta me, but whatever...then I picked up my mom from work, and being that I was still in kind of a bad mood, we had a little fight, and that kinda got me down also...

But then I went to the party, and although at first I was still in a bad mood, by the end of the dinner I was feeling somewhat better...can't put my finger on exactly how, but whatever...also, I was pleasantly surprised at how my reasoning was not as clouded as I thought it would be...or maybe it was, except it was just a different kind of justification...but oh well, the point is that I had a good time at earls tonight :-)

Which reminds me, good job Shar! You finally talked to Lucas! And what happened again? Was it a good thing that you talked to the guy?! Exactly!!! Like everyone said, you should've done this months ago! But it don't matter that you slowly tugged away at the band-aid instead of ripping it off, the point is that it's off, eh? Except in this case, it's not yet finished...you've only just begun your journey, my friend...and alls I've got to say to that is good luck!

Anyways, after the dinner, a whole bunch of us went to Oscars for pool, and that was also quite fun, as pool usually is...also, at the end, everyone left except for me and Ahmad, cause we wanted to keep playing, so that was pretty cool. However, that game was kinda funny...halfway into the game, he got a call from                 ...however, he then started playing while talking on the phone, shooting with one hand...it looked hilarious, cell phone in the left hand, balancing the cue against the railing with the right...actually, I was kinda getting scared, because it almost looked like he'd be able to beat me one handed, lol...I did end up winning the game, but just barely...I still felt kinda embarrassed, but whatever, it was tons of fun...

Anyways, that's about it for my day, and I'm feeling okay right about now...well, except for the fact that it's past 3am, I'm gonna have to study my ass off for the next few days, and that I'll probably end up spending way too much time socializing in comparison to my studying...but that's alright :-)

Man, I'm rereading that e-mail again...it was actually very nice, except it was hella scary..."I am asking that you discontinue any contact with her"...'nuff said.

...well that was kinda weird, after I read the e-mail I started to surf a bit, relevant to the e-mail...Opened my eyes a bit...I kinda know why her mom said that, but I don't know, when someone says you can't have something...

But anyways, it's really late now, and I do have to study, so I should go now...even though I'll probably end up surfing the net for a while anyways, haha...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

...

So my english is now over...hooray...I had an awesome party at my place...hooray...I even played pool and everything...hooray...but yet I still end up feeling like crap...

It was my own friggin party, I shouldn't have gone...and just as I thought, there ended up being trouble, and some people had to leave...at the theatres, that is...stupid movies...but I shouldn't be so ungrateful...

This is crap. My judgement is always off, I end up doing things I wouldn't normally do, then something always ends up making me feel horrible...I don't know why everything changes when             is around, I'm afraid that I'm changing everything once again just because I want             to             me.

That's not cool...something has to happen...and yet I still hesitate, for I already know the answer, and if I already know the answer, then why bother..."you never know," my ass...

And yet by tomorrow, I'm sure that things will have already changed...I'd be back to my crappy old             self, and once again I'll make excuses, reasonings, and justifications for my actions...but every time that I fall             , it's always viewed in a bubble...at times, it seems obvious to me that it has to be one way, but then at other times...completely the freakin opposite...daggers through the friggin             ...every freakin time something seems to go my way, a few moons later and everything seems to be for naught...

Well no more. It's not worth it.

...Oh how I wish that were so...that would make everything so much easier...but it's not easy, and it's not fun...

I shouldn't keep grasping at straws, when I know I'm always short...

I was                 with             once, and then something happened, at the worst possible time, and all turned to crap...I won't allow myself to be                 again...but why fool myself, I know that I'm already                 , no matter how hard I try to fight...consciously, I don't really feel like I'm inf         d, but I know that deep down I really am...

I feel so low...I hope I'm not just finding a scapegoat to justify my incorrect actions...crap, now I think I might be...it's not just , it's everyone...I've always been left out, in everything, for as long as I can remember...now everytime something happens, I feel like I have to go, no matter the consequences...even as I had forseen the consequences, my clouded judgement saw fit that not going would've be worse...

Stupid so-called best friend...said I couldn't play with him because I was too short...for two whole days I felt horrible...and alone...and then he apologized and we were best friends again...but it was still traumatic...and that's only one of the many similar examples I could give...

Okay, well this sucks...it's nearly 4am, I still feel like crap for ditching my party, and my friggin "bed" has no sheets still...and I feel so alone...dang, maybe that's it...I felt so alone when I watched the movie...nobody on my left, stranger to my right...but I've watched movies by myself before, so I don't know...

But today was supposed to be great...and I guess that as a whole it was pretty damn good...but people only remember how you finished the race, not how you got there...but the party was fun...if slightly embarrasing, har dee har har...and pool was fun...except for the being too poor to freakin pay for my own freakin share...man, maybe that's it...I can't even get a friggin job at friggin wendy's...I'm such a putz...I hate having no money, and I know I shouldn't ask, which makes it that much harder...but that's junk, because when I actually had money, I blew it all within a week...hmmm, once again, it was probably, no, definately because             altered judgement...

You know what? It's probably just everything combined that's got me so down tonight...it just was one big crescendo...or decrescendo, I don't know how I'd like to view it...but it was probably just everything piled up, especially right there at the end...

Or it might just be what I thought before, my original answer...all this extra stuff I wrote afterwards could be my own justifications to perpetuate my irrationality...oh man, I sure hope it wasn't just empty reasoning...I do seem to be rambling quite a lot right now...and I am fairly tired...physically, mentally, and especially emotionally...man, I was barely able to even be able to go on the comp, my idiot father decided to take my administrator privelages away, I couldn't do anything at all...that really pissed me off...woke him up at freakin 2:30...mom got pissed off, because she's working in the morning...but I didn't care, I had to get on before I went insane, literally...at least I got my admin back...

And that's just another rambling on...and it's 4:30...and I still feel like crap...except now I think I've just confused myself...I'm trying too hard to pin down exactly why I feel so crappy...and I'm also being way too analytical over every little thing that happened today...but I don't know, it's the little things that usually count the most...

So maybe it was because of             and that everything else is my justification. Or maybe it was because I wanted to feel included. Or maybe it was because I was poor. Or maybe it was because I was lonely. Or maybe it was everything combined. Or maybe I'm just being an ass and finding ways to feel sorry for myself.

It's friggin late. I say it's the last one. I really am an ass. An ungrateful, undeserving ass...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert...except now I feel more of like an introvert who tried too hard to be extroverted and is feeling the introverted consequences...

Oh no, oh no, oh no...OH YEAH!!!

Oh man, I feel so pumped up! It's 11pm, and I'm just about done my essay! Just another page or so and I'm finished! That's frickin awesome!

Not to mention the fact that I was able to go to school, see my friends, play some pool, go to Rob's house (along with Cindy and Shar) to see his little sister, and stay long enough to have dinner there! Overall, that must've meant I took 5 hours out of my day for socialization, when I thought I'd be stuck at home all day, thinking I won't have enough time to get my essay done...but man oh man, when I got home, I was in such a good mood that I was able to really get cracking! And I'm nearly done my essay! WOOO!!!

Why don't I just finish the essay first and then blog, you say? Because I'm feeling way too hyper, that's why! Just the fact that I can be finished with this essay within the next hour is just too frickin amazing to me! I wrote practically the same amount from 6:30am - 3:30pm as I did from the past two and a half hours! WHOA!!! This means that I'll probably be able to have a good nights sleep, wake up relatively early, have a nice breakfast, and still have time for some last minute studying before my english final! Giggity giggity giggity!!!

Oh man, now that was a rush...but I guess I should get back to my essay before I do something ridiculous like play some candystand pool...hehe...

Ohhh, online pool...but NO! Time for work now! Hopefully I'll be able to get back into my train of thought, lol...

And don't forget, party at my place on Saturday!!!

Until next time, I guess...SCHAWING!!!


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Quiz time!

Decided to do that quiz everyone seems to be doing...and don't forget, party at my place on Saturday night!!!

Firsts:
First best friend: Geoffrey Chan (chan?) in K-gr.3...but apparently Henry in preschool, but I don't remember that as much, lol...
First car: None personally...however, the first family car was a 1980's flesh-yellow Toyota Celica
First screen name: Nitsuj
First funeral: Hmmm...my dad's cousin I think...
First pet: Casper and Goldie...they were goldfish.
First piercing: N/A
First musicians you remember hearing in your house: Apparently I was really into bon jovi when I was 2-3 yrs old, haha...

Lasts:
Last car ride: Earlier today (or yesterday to be technical)
Last kiss: About a year and a half ago
Last alcoholic beverage: Beer, at a pizzaria in Amsterdam
Last good cry: Well, I'd say 2 weeks ago...you don't need tears to cry, right?
Last library book checked out: "Rich Dad's Prophecy - How to build your financial ark" (or something like that) in august
Last movie seen: Cube 2 (a weird, horror, B-type movie)
Last time showered: A few hours ago
Last item bought: Tim Hortons French Vanilla and a Canadian Maple donut...although technically Shar paid for it, haha...
Last annoyance: Realizing that I've wasted nearly 2 hours talking on msn, then procrastinating even more by doing this dinky quiz! Haha!
Last disappointment: I guess a week or so ago..."When she smiled I thought that it meant something else" -->Vroom - Dumb Like That
Last time wanting to die: Same time as above...well that, coupled with all the friggin allnighters I pulled to finish those danged papers...
Last shirt worn: Right now, my oversized "Whistler Adventure" t-shirt to sleep in.
Last website visited: http://www.bcyouth.com [my friend Rob's in the freakin' thailand poster thing!]
Last word/sentence you said: "How the heck am I supposed to remember the last thing I said???"
Last song you sang: "Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want" on the ride home from T-Ho's, since nothing good was on the radio, lol...

What's:
What is in your cd player?: A mix, "The Introverted Extrovert"
What color socks are you wearing?: White
What Color underwear are you wearing?: I aint's wearing no underwear! Haha...[just wearing shorts for sleeping]
What's under your bed?: I have a bed...?
What time did you wake up today?: About 12:15pm

Currents:
Current mood: Lazy...[didn't think procrastinatory is a word, haha...]
Current music: Vroom - Dumb Like That
Current taste: Pancit my mom made...and French Vanilla coffee from T-Ho's...
Current hair: Kinda long, and all spiked up most of the time...
Current clothes: "Whistler Adventure" t-shirt, Champion cotton shorts, white socks
Current annoyance(s): My stupid english paper...and being confused...
Current book(s): Aside from schoolbooks, nothing really...
Current time-wasting wish: Playing pool, or just hanging out, with everyone.
Current hate: My stupid english paper...

My favorite...
1. Color is: Light Green
2. Song is: "Vroom - Dumb Like That"...always has some meaning in my life.
3. Scent is: The sweet, sweet smell of a woman in heat...heh...
4. Alcoholic beverage is: Alcohol tastes like junk...I can't even gargle listerine!
5. Food is: Mashed potatoes and gravy, or Sinagang...

And there you have it! Now that was a good way to waste half an hour! Ha! And although I really should be getting to my english paper, it's kinda already 2:30am, and I'm gettin tired...and I've gotta be up in 8 hours! Man!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Pasko Sa Bagong Taon!

Haha, watching a filipino chrismas program on channel 20...it's so corny that it's awesome! And it's got all these traditional filipino christmas songs, and in the next segment there's like new R&B chrismas songs that they cover! It's just cool...too bad I need my mom to translate most of it though :-)

Anyways, I wanted to let everyone know that my sister and I (well, mostly my sister) are having a party next saturday night, Dec. 18th. Studying, you say?? BAH! You can stop for 3 hours and drop by! Hehe...but anyways, it isn't going to be anything really big, and we're probably just gonna watch a movie and have pizza and stuff like that...but if all goes well, we might be able to have kereoke! KEREOKE!!! AWESOME!!! Oh, and my sister said that we're kinda doing a secret santa spin-the-bottle type thingy, so if you wanna bring a small, unisex present, we can do a gift swap thing with others and it'll be fun! Or so my sis says, lol...

To sum up, there's a party at my place next Sat., Dec. 18th (time TBA), so if you can make it, come along! And bring a little present for the secret santa if you wanna!

[Edit, 2 a.m.: The party is probably going to start around 6:30-7 p.m.-ish and end around midnight-1ish, according to my sister...oh, and another thing, I hope you guys don't mind being in a half-renovated house...my mom's kinda embarrassed, but I don't mind, and if you don't mind either, then I don't see the problem, lol...]

Anyways, I'll blog about my weekend eventually, but right now I'm off to watch some more Pasko Sa Bagong Taon! Hehe...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Fairly Nice

Well then, I've had a fairly nice day...

After I finished my paper, I guitar'd it up a bit, then had a shower, then went to school...was falling asleep during econ at 10, haha...ended early, but stayed up and talked to people...then took nap at 12:15ish, slept until quarter to 2...and that was my sleep for all of two days! At 2ish, went to white spot with Roger and Angelake...we finished about 6 little cup things of honey mustard sauce, hehehe...then came back to school, close to 3:30, went to talk to my sociology teacher...handed in my paper, told her I couldn't do the presentation, she said it was okay and the 10%'ll be put back into the book review paper...my teacher's nice...

Jeez, my head feels so fried...don't even know if any of this makes any sense...but I'll continue on with my day anyways, before I forget, hehe...

So anyways, after talkin with the teacher, we went to RPM, we being Mohsin, Reuben, Rob, Shar, and Myself. Roger, Angela, and Jake were supposed to come, but Roger's car key broke in the lock or something, had to get his sister's, and since they all had something to do soon anyways, they just decided not to come to RPM...anyways, I didn't get anything there, but other people did...and it was fun...when we came back at the school, a bunch of us went to the computer lab, a bunch of us being Rob, Cindy, Shar, and Myself. Don't remember what Rob and Cindy did, I did some blog surfing for a bit, and Shar did her project...but then she finished, and wanted to go on yahoo pool, but since yahoo pool wasn't working, I told people to go to candystand instead, and we all had a blast playing the candystand pool...the points one was the best, and Shar and I played that for a while...stupid Shar! I was winning for most of the match, but she pulls up with like 12 in a row and ends up beating me! Haha! But anyways, after this electronic pool match, we couldn't help but go to oscars and actually play some real live pool...so we played for about an hour or so, ended up playing 5-6 normal games, 2 of which didn't end with one of us scratching on the 8-ball hehe, as well as a couple 9-ball rounds...and I must say, 9-ball is so much fun!

Man, isn't that a metaphor of my life...I play like a pro, and then I scratch on the 8-ball...haha

Anyways, after pool, Shar drove me home...and at home, I finally had some homemade dinner! And not just any ordinary dinner; it was SINAGANG! That filipino soup is the best frickin food in the world! It was yum-tastic! The beef, with the sour tamarind mama sita soup base, and the spinach and cabbage...I swear, along with turkey dinner, it's gotta be my favourite food!

Oh man, this seems so discombobulated...my friggin head must be a mess...therefore, as it is quarter to midnight, I believe that it is time for me to bid adieux...or adieu...or whatever...man, and to think that I'm part french...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

More Annoyances!

Oh man, you know what happened? After pool, with only Shar and myself left playing, I realized that I left my backpack in Mohsin's car! And it wouldn't usually be so bad, I'd just pick it up the next day, but I've got a paper due tomorrow, and the book my paper is going to be on was in my bag!

So I ended up having to drive all the way to friggin DELTA to get my backpack! Man, Mohsin, why do you have to live so far away! And man, that was an adventure...first time ever really going out that way, but I'm glad that he gave good directions, and that I'm able to take directions fairly well too, lol...

Anyways, that pretty much ate up another hour on top of my spending all day socializing at school then going out for Boston Pizza and the Pool...so basically, I came home at 11:30ish...

So do I start doing my paper immediately? Of course not! I have to go online and talk on msn for hours! And I'm talking on msn right now, btw...hehe. Also, I think I'm going to have to take a shower before I start as well...and considering that it's almost 1 a.m., I'm probably going to start my paper at around 2ish! That's kinda horrible! But hey, that's what I get for procrastinating, and I can live with this...for now, at least...

And one more thing. Some recent events have made me think about an old cliche, except I thought I'd change it up a bit to fit with my philosophy:

Nice guys finish last, but at least they finish...it just takes a little longer!

Which means that being nice doesn't get you very far in the short term, but in the long run, everthing will usually work out for the best...and I sure hope everything will work out for the best...I'm just going to have to wait a little longer...

Until next time, I guess...


-->As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: Yes another edit...as it turns out, I did end up back on the comp at around 2ish, except I have found every way to procrastinate...from commenting on blogs, to playing the guitar, to turning down the thermostat, to editing my own blog! And now I'm getting sleepy! I'm getting worried...my work habits are completely down the drain, and I'm starting to really laze it up now...hopefully this won't follow me into my career...]

[Edit#2: It's just after 8am, and I'm finally finished my paper...however, as to the fact that I'm nearly collapsing onto my keyboard, and that I really have to attend my class at 10, means that I'll probably sleep for 3-4 hours at the chill spot once again...either that, or in the middle of class...hehe]

Annoyances

Well, a bunch of stuff happened over the past 2 days...most importantly, I finally registered for my classes. And that was hell...

What happened was that on Monday, I was supposed to register at 9 a.m., however, my stupid registration fee didn't go through yet! Sure, I just did it on Friday, but it was by EFT! It's supposed to be instant! Jeez! Anyways, that pissed me off, because I couldn't get the courses I wanted for a good schedule...I had to make 2-3 trips from school, home, and the bank just figuring all of that junk out...and right when I was going to pay another $240 (to guarantee that I'll be registering 7am the next day), the stupid bank transfer went through! All that stupid junk, and all I had to do was wait a few hours! But that's alright I guess...I ended up playing pool once again that night, which is always awesome...

And the next day, I finally was able to register for my classes. But low and behold, my schedule is awful! Not only do I have class at 8am twice a week, I've also got two 7-10pm classes! But that's not even the best part...one of my 7-10 classes is in frickin SURREY! That just sucks! But then again, I got all the courses necessary to *possibly* get into UBC next term, so I shouldn't complain too much...I'll take this as a life lesson sort of dillio...and besides, Surrey has a gym on campus! Therefore, every wednesday will now be my workout day! SCHAWING!

I gotta look at the positives, I've been seeing way too many negatives lately...well, more like obstacles really...and that's not even academically!

Academically, I've been slacking off terribly...and although I absolutely know the reason why, it still doesn't seem to justify it in the long run...the short run, however, is a different story...

And what's with the vagueness, you might ask? Take a guess :-)

Anyways, it's 1:42 in the morning, and once again I have slacked off from my actual work that I need to be doing, such as MY FRICKIN PAPER! Also, it seems that I won't be able to do my presentation after all, due to the fact that I'm a lazy bastard...well, not necessarily, more like a person with skewed priorities...screwed up priorities as well, according to what today has brought me...

But what actually happened today...? Lets see...registration in the morning...class at 10...skipping english to "study"...ending up going to RPM...giving up on studying for my exam...did my exam...helped Shar with math...freaked out when Mohsin's stuff wasn't there when we came back from fooding...wasted a few hours waiting for Mohsin...Mohsin telling us that he gave his stuff to Jaimie, haha...met up with Jake and Donald from Toronto...and finally, as usual, POOL!!! Hehe...

So let me ask you this:
Is socialization worth loosing a few points on your overall GPA? -->To me, absolutely. And besides, as Ahmad says, I'm learning "interpersonal skills" for my future career...yeah, I'm learning...hehe...

Hmmm, one more thing...I finally realized exactly why I've been socializing so much recently instead of doing work (or at least the main reason why). However, I have been having second thoughts about why I socialize so much...and I think it's fair to assume it's because I'm having second thoughts about this "main reason" of mine.

Again with the vagueness, eh? Haha, I love this...

Wow...I was about to go off, and then I started to ramble on for 25 minutes...that's horrible! I gotta get off this blog, and at least make a file for my paper...haha...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: I'm such an idiot procrastinator...on so many levels...lets just say that it's late, and I haven't started my paper after I finished the blog...I swear, I've always hated ripping off the band-aid...]

Man...screwed...

Well then, stayed up super late last night watching joke videos on the many joke video sites on the net...super late meaning past 6am...and why did I do this? I don't know...

My latest guess is that I figured out last night that I'll probably have to spend another year at Kwantlen...this is due to the fact that I might not be able to get the courses that I need to transfer to UBC...and that really pissed me off...wanted to be able to laugh, so I watched funny net videos...

However, now that I think about it, another year at Kwantlen isn't so bad...another year to slack off before really cranking it up for UBC...hopefully people will be staying there next year :-) No wait, I don't want that, people should be able to get to wherever they wanna go next year...but oh well, at least I'll still have Kris and Rob for sure, heh...

Oh, and as a side note, "Jojo - Leave (Get Out)" is a hilarious song! And it's even funnier when you're able to play it on the freakin guitar! lol! Also, Dm to C sounds really cool...haha...

Man, I've really gotta step it up...no more distractionariums!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

#47!!!

Man, my cousin was on freakin' sportsnet! The Subway Bowl! Alvin Tejuco, #47 on the VC football team, and he was freaking shutting down Doerkson, the best player on Rick Hansen for most of the game! Not only the best player on the other team, but the freakin' AAA PLAYER OF THE YEAR!!! That's cool! To all of you who watched, he was the guy who Doerkson pushed over in frustration, lol...The annoucers were all "the one player who you're not going to hear a lot of in this game, but is really great, is Tejuco. He's shutting down arguably the best player in BC" yadda yadda...that's awesome! But it's not Te-Jew-Co, it's Te-Who-Co! I mean, c'mon! Haha...too bad they lost, but man was it ever an amazing football game...so close, 21-19 Hurricanes over the Fighting Irish...but whatever, my cousin was on freakin' t.v.!

Haha, my uncle phoned me up to tell me he's on tv: "Justin, are you doing anything? Change it to channel 22, Alvin's on TV! He's playing football, and he's the STAR!!!" hahaha!

And as for my essays and what not, I was able to move my presentation to next thursday, which is awesome...but I still have an english paper due on Tuesday (sort of), a psych exam also on tuesday, a soci paper (a book review) and the presentation on Thursday...so I still gotta step it up and not waste so much time...

I gotta step it up for a lot of things...

Oh, and as a side note, I don't think I'll be going to the Switchfoot concert, barring getting free tickets from Joey...I think it'd be more productive to actually get some work done, study for my exams, etc etc...haha, but I can see myself wasting my day away socializing at kwantlen...but whatever :-)

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Congradulations, siblings!

My sisters were baptised today! I'm so happy for them :-)

I'll update later about my personal happenings, but for right now, I'm just going to enjoy the happiness :-)

Dang...

Man, I am such an idiot...on so many friggin levels...

Not the least of which being the fact that I have a frickin paper and a presentation due tomorrow, and that I feel like frickin crap right now, want to sleep the night away...

And what sucks is that I actually had a pretty good day today, fun time socializing, that charicature wall and all that...even the pool with Shar and Mohsin...but you know what? It's all for naught...and now I'm frickin tired as hell and I have a frickin paper due tomorrow, and I have to be frickin good in my frickin presentation so I should get at least a few hours of frickin sleep...

I don't even know why I feel like such crap...well, I do, but I don't know why it's making feel like such crap...it's not really that big of a deal...and it's completely my fault, I had so many chances to start it, but didn't...which makes me feel like an idiot...but whatever, I have to start my frickin paper sometime, and that sometime has to be now...

Stupid everything...

And once again, I fall back on my song...it always has some relevance in my life somehow...

"Dumb Like That"
by Vroom

I think I've seen every star in the sky tonight
Removed from the city lights, it's never seemed so bright...
I know I shouldn't believe a word you say,
I do anyway, cause I'm dumb like that.

Oh...
In all the words I've given to you,
When you smiled I thought that it meant something else.
You were just being yourself, being nice,
You're always rather polite...
To me...

You let me down again, when you ignored the things I said to you.
If I was scared of you then maybe I could leave...
And if I walked away right now,
There would be nothing left for me to lose but doubt.

I Never fell so far for anyone before,
Never again I swore,
With you hope was restored...
You make me feel like I've been torn apart
I don't like that at all. I've lost control...

Oh...
In all the words I've given to you,
I poured my heart out into an empty coffee cup,
You drank it up,
& left me here to drown...
Alone...

You let me down again, when you ignored the things I said to you.
If I was scared of you, then maybe I could leave...
Cause if I walked away right now,
There would be nothing left for me to lose, but,
I can't lose you...I can't lose you...
I can't lose you!

I think I've seen every star that I care to see,
but I don't wanna leave.
It hurts when you're self deceived...
I know I shouldn't believe a word you say,
I do it anyway,
Cause I'm dumb like that...

Oh...
In all the words I've given to you
When you smiled I thought that it meant something else.
You were just being yourself, being nice,
You're always rather polite...
To me...

You let me down again, when you ignored the things I said to you.
If I was scared of you then maybe I could leave
Cause if I walked away right now,
There would be nothing left for me to lose but doubt...
but doubt...but doubt!

There's nothing left, there's nothing left for me to lose but doubt...
There's nothing left, there's nothing left for me to lose but doubt...
There's nothing left, there's nothing left...

So it's a frickin reposting, I don't care...this song's the best...

And I officially have about 13 hrs to get my frickin act together...okay, lets schedule this puppy up...

Assuming an hour per page, and five to seven pages, I'll spend until 6am doing my paper...taking into account the obvious hardness of following this schedule, I'll assume I won't be done until 8ish...then I'll get a few hours of sleep when my sis needs to use the comp, probably until about 12ish...then do my powerpoint for 3 hours, practice for a half, get to school by 4pm and do my presentation...

Crap, that looks so horrible...it's never going to happen...assuming the worst, I won't be able to finish it properly, I get an average of 35% for the project, drop my friggin gpa a few letter grades...but whatever, it's my fault, once again I've made my choice...but for the first time in my life, I feel like I've made the wrong choice...I swear, if I'm not able to get it together by tomorrow, I'm gonna become a recluse and spend the next two weeks in the friggin library...

Man, this really is getting to me...never knew I felt this strongly about it...

But whatever, the point is that I have to stop fricking procrastinating on my stupid blog and actually get started! Jeez, I gotta pratice what I preach! I really am an idiot...

Until next time...assuming there is a next time...

--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: I'm feeling better now...had a nice talk with Krystle, cleared a few things up for me...however, I barely started on my paper, and it's past 3:30am!!! But still, it was worth it to feel better, because now I'm able to focus on schoolwork...well, right after I stop adding edits to my blog, lol...]

[Edit#2: Great, I'm not even done one page and it's already 5:30am...I'm so friggin screwed!]

[Edit#3: Wow, I'm halfway through my paper, and it's just after 7:00am...I must say, once you get on a roll, you get on a roll...hopefully it doesn't turn out to be a bunch of crap and I fail anyways, hahaha...]

[Edit#4: Just a little past 8:00am, and I'm somewhat nodding off every few minutes or so, and I've still got at least 2 more pages left to do...must finish paper before I take nap...then, after napping, is the frickin presentation...booooo]

[Edit#5: Okay, slept at 9am, didn't finish it yet, overslept by half an hour and now it's 12pm! 4 FRIGGIN HOURS TO FINISH MY PAPER AND PREPARE MY ORAL PRESENTATION!!!]

[Edit#6: You know what? I don't really care anymore. I finished my friggin paper, and I know it's a bunch of crap, even worse than my Psych paper I did for tuesday. But that's alright, because now I still have three hours to prepare my presentation...but I'd much rather just crawl into a gutter and rot...]

[Edit#7: Yeah, I give up on the presentation now too...I know that I won't be able to do a good job, and I don't wanna have to face being in front of people right now...I'm willing to lose 10% of my mark over this...I'll try to postpone it until next week, I'm having family problems, you know...heh...but I doubt I'll be able to make Seema bend the rules for me. So in the end, my final grade for sociology will probably drop by 2-3 letter grades, but that's the choice I made...and what a crappy choice I have made...]

Watinfomaride

Just got off of calc, ended early today...told my dad to pick me up at 10:15, so I've gots myself some time...

Man, today in calc we were doing 3-dimentional graphs, planes etc etc...it was cool, it reminded me of when I was a kid (i.e. pre-kindergarten) and I watched these cool math programs on the knowledge network before / after the kiddy programs...it was so cool, there were these computer generated robot things (in the 80's, so it was awesome!), and it kinda looked like tron, with equations equalling how fast this car moved on a grid etc etc...

But anyways, I remember in one episode, there were using a plane to bisect a cone, and I remember being amazed at the different shapes that could be on the plane depending on where it bisected the cone: horizontally, it was a circle...diagonally, an oval...vertically, down the middle, a triangle...vertically, anywhere else, a parabola (well, curvy shape thingy when I was little, haha...). I remember it being so cool, because after it showed the shape, there was this long and seemingly jumbled list of numbers and letters above it (i.e. the equation), and it just looked so cool to me...haha, even before school, I was such a geek!

Anyways, I just wanted to write this down before I forgot this little memory gem of my childhood...hehe...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.