Tests are beginning to suck...

Bah, had my psych test, didn't think I did as well as I would have, since I practically didn't study...however, I do believe I got around 70%, so it could be worse...

But this is not what I'm talking about. I'VE GOT A FRICKIN' CALC MIDTERM TOMORROW THAT I HAVEN'T STUDIED AT ALL FOR!!! That sucks ass!!! I guess it's my own lazy fault though, but whatever...hopefully this will be a wake up call, motivating me to actually try in my schooling and what not...

Anyways, I haven't been blogging much recently, due to the complete lack of anything interesting to ramble on about. It seems like absolutely nothing has been happening nowadays, which is completely sucky...and once again I'm wasting my weekends away...I mean it couldn't hurt you guys to call me up now and again, eh? But I digress, I'm not really angry and anyone other than my own lazy self...

I'm really not liking my schedule now...horrible, horrible schedule...

Oh, before I forget for the rest of my life, I had dentist on friday...that's all...

anyways, I go now!

}-{ello my future girlfriend

Man, I've been wasting soo much time on newgrounds, ebaumsworld, etc funny websites, but man I've been having a blast! It's just too frickin hilarious! Here are some of my favourites so far (besides Numa Numa dance, of course, heh...)

Mikey!!! [gotta use explorer or netscape to hear it though...]
Final Fantasy A+ [coolest flash animation EVER!]
There She Is!!! [you gotta love that Japanese Korean Ska!]
Weezer Jam Session [frickin' online donkey konga!]
She Blocked Me [this so happened to me!]
Asian Arcade [man, kwantlen soooo has to get this game!]
Star Wars Kid [a classic]
Mario Guitar [holy crap, I so gotta learn that one day!]
Mario Piano [as cool as guitar, if not more so!]
Matrix Ping Pong [my original fav, quite possibly the coolest video EVER]
Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me [haha, hilarious!]
Milk and Cereal [haha, maybe I just like musical vids...]
(edit 9am: Jimmy Eat World Hidden Message [haha! people lick their butts! sushi sushi!])
(edit 9:30am: Amburgers & Wootbeer [this one's got sentimental value to me...did a group project about A&W, wasted soo many hours playing this instead of working...it's amazing on a giant lecture hall screen! lol...])

Hmmm, I think that should be quite enough for now, it being already 3am, and I've gotta drive my mom in about 4 hrs, haha...but no school, so hurrah! Except I don't have classes on wed. normally, so oh well...However, I'm still kinda ticked off that there's a strike wednesday, because I'll be missing anime! Bah! Actually, it's not really the anime that I'm missing, it's just the fact that I wanted to see somebody there...but oh well, there's always a next time, at least for now...

Wow, what a ramble...you think I'd be tired, being that I practically had only 1.5hr of sleep, and I ran w/ the guys tonight @ minoru track, and after eating the calzone and rediculously large screamer, but nooooo, I'm still frickin wide awake!

But no more! Time for bed now! And a-poo-pooo-ka-chuuu to you too! Uhhh...yeah...hehe

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Numa Numa Dance!!! NU MA, NU MA IEI!!!

Holy crap, this is the most awesomestness thing I've ever seen on the net! It so tops matrix ping pong! It's just so freakin' hilarious!

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/numanuma.html
or
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/206373

Haha! That guy's awesome! He'll be bigger than the star wars kid! And that song's so friggin catchy, it's been in my head for days!

Holy crap, I just found out that it's in romanian, and it's called "Dragostea Din Tei" by O-Zone...awesomeness! I swear, by the end of next week, I'll have it frickin memorized...

"Dragostea Din Tei"
by O-Zone

Ma-ia-hii
Ma-ia-huu
Ma-ia-haa
Ma-ia-haha!
(x4)

Alo, salut,
Sunt eu, un haiduc
Si te rog, iubirea mea,
Primeste, fericirea.
Alo, a-alo,
Sunt eu Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep...
Si sunt voinic.
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.
(x2)

Te sun, sa-ti spun, ce simt acum,
Alo, iubirea mea, sunt eu, fericirea.
Alo, a-alo, sunt iarasi eu, Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep...
Si sunt voinic.
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.
(x2)

Ma-ia-hii
Ma-ia-huu
Ma-ia-haa
Ma-ia-haha!
(x4)

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.
(x2)

Crap Dammit!

ARRRGHGH!!!

Frickin' Father! I swear, one day I'm gonna tear out his frickin' tongue with a rusty grapefruit spoon...

Quicknesslike

Gonna make it quick, talk less coherently...

Thursday: Woke up late-ish, went to school at noon, went back home early, did homework, played videogames, went to bed. Blah...

Friday: School super freakin early, hung out at school, went shopping etc w/ Angela and Shar, bought rediculously expensive greek food b/c didn't wanna buy at BP later, watched dodgeball @ Angela's, went to BP for Roger & Elaine's bday [Happy Belated Birthday you two!], had a blast there, thought Roger's church friend was attractive up until I found out that she smoked, that was a huge turnoff, then afterparty thing was annoying w/ the no pool tables and the moving of hanging out spots and the cold and the drama, [p.s. glad to know everything's worked out 'bout the drama], then went home...whoopie! Fun day! Well, kinda iffy day as a whole, the whole day something didn't feel right, and with the Roger being down at times and the other drama, it kinda fit w/ my mood...but I say good on ya Roger for what u're doing man...except for the cigars, I agree w/ elaine that they're disgusting...Best part of the night? Roger all hopped up on "adrenaline", haha...

Saturday: Church in the morning, cool singing group ala boyz-2-men / all-4-one -esque from california, they were awesome, interesting sermon about tsunami and not jumping to conclusions, i.e. not saying god did it to punish non-christians and not devil to bring chaos and not going to be the end of the world, well could be any of these but not to jump to conclusions...then afterchurch lunch thing at Cruz's place, yummy authentic mexican food, hung out with the church crew, haven't done that in a while...then went home and did jack all for the rest of the night...mostly watch movies if I rememer correctly...

Sunday: Humongous day of sloth, did squat incl. not doing my homework...'bout alls I remember, it was so dull...probably watched movies again...

Monday: Did jack all in the morning, incl. not doing my homework...went to school, 6hrs straight of classes from 4-10 SUCKS ASS...then went home, realized that I needed to finish my homework, then pulled an allnighter because of the stupid math...

Tuesday: Finished homework, went to class at 8, literally falling asleep in front of teacher which is bad because I was her best student (in Econ), took a nap after class from 10 to about 11:30, went to T-Ho's w/ shar and bought myself a hot chocolate and cinnamon bun (note to self, cinnamon buns from T-Ho's SUCK ASS!!!), hung around chill spot 'til class at 2 instead of sleeping, math at 2, stupid only having to hand in the one that I did already realizing that I didn't have to pull an allnighter! Gaahhhh! Then, instead of sleeping, went to eat at mall, but waited for kris 'til 5, so then we went, got yummy indian curry food, then went to dollar store and I stocked up on candy and junk, had class at 7-10, was falling over by the end, then went home watched tv and was on comp late instead of sleeping...stupid stupid me!

Wednesday: (Today) - Woke up late and almost missed my uncle who came over this morning...then went to lansdowne and he bought me lunch w/ shawarma on rice and the yummy, then went to anime club, finished watching awesomeness that was Full Metal Panic, stupid me being too shy to ask for the stupid e-mail or whatever, she was pretty today...stupid only seeing her once a week thus making it hard to get to know her, hence the wanting of the e-mail, hence the me kicking myself for being wimpy/shy/scared to ask in front of other people since it would seem terribly obvious that I'd wanna go out w/ her...but anyways, after anime, hung out w/ the crew...haha, Lucas showed up! That was a riot, me introducing everyone, everyone going "ohhh, YOU'RE Lucas...I've heard so much about you!" haha...then shar got back, that was funny..."Shar, everyone seems to know me...we're gonna have to have a little talk" hahahaha...then went to eat again, well I didn't eat more like just hung out w/ the crew, but did end up buying orange julius 2-for-$3 thing w/ Kris, plus finding out that there was someone from McNair that was Kris's friend that I didn't know existed in highschool making me feel like a dolt, besides she was fairly attractive being with the shortness and the dying of the hair funky colours etc...also, saw old friend from Nightshift, the guy who organizes everything, had some smalltalk, told him 'bout Interphase, said they'd definately be able to play at a Nightshift just give an e-mail etc! Awesomeness! Haha...then, went back to school, did jack squat again, just hanging out w/ Kris 'til he left, then went home...

And that was my lack-of-updatedness week!...yeah, not too many would understand nor bother to read this post 'cause of the lack of coherency, but whatever...once again this stuff mostly for me...

In conclusion, rollercoaster week of emotional, physical, academic, and social ups and downs...however, not going for the girls I found attractive did stick out in my mind this week...probably because I'm still kicking myself for not getting the e-mail...stinkiness on my part! But Bah! No more unnecessary shyness! I'm starting to be really attracted to this girl, and I don't wanna be attracted without getting to know her better...and I've really gotta learn to smarten up and be more assertive and junk! Girls my type aren't the ones who'd ask me on a date, therefore I've gotta be the aggressor!

Man...so late again...why can't I just have a normal sleeping! Bah, I want a routine!!! Stupid bad schedule, stupid no room, stupid everything...

But I can't end on a bad note! No sireeee!!! Sunshine and lollipops, ice cream and giggles, crushes and kisses! SCHAWING!!!

Haha, until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Man, already?!

I can't believe it, it's not even a month into the schoolyear and I've already pulled an allnighter! Stupid math assignments taking forever which is probably useless anyways beacuse only a fraction of the actual work is needed to be handed in because insane stoner-like Hofstead has some weird assignment structuring...or something like that...

Man, this post is turning kris-esque, lol...but can you blame me? I've been up for 20+hrs now, and I've got class in about an hour on top of that! Haha...I guess it's another naptime on 3rd floor again!

Well, I seem to have been slacking in my blogging duties, but I've either been too busy or too lazy to update...but I should do a catch-up update later today, as long as I have enough time alloted, and that I'm not sleeping, haha...

Anyways, I'm off to have a shower, maybe eat some breakfast, and then I'm off to school! Heh...oh man, that reminds me, I've got 7-10 class tonight, that's gonna be killer, haha...well, maybe w/nap it won't be so bad...plus, I've got no classes wed.! Sleeping in 'til 1ish, watching anime at 2, read/socialize/etc later...

What the heck! I'm rambling once again! Stupid lack of sleepingness...

Man, it's cold...I've been cold all night, but now I'm actually shivering...it's cold in the dining area w/ the new dining table, w/ no direct heater vent...

Gaaahhhh!!! I'm off! Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

The Best Outta Shape In My Life pt.2

Well, first things first, running on an iced-over minoru track is frickin awesome! Not only that, but I actually surprised myself as to how long I was able to run! 1600 meters without stopping, baby! SCHAWING!!! Not only that, but even with all the coldness, I wasn't terribly athesmatic tonight! Hooray for everything! And having it all iced over was quite fun, I must say...every other step my foot started to slip! Thankfully, I didn't end up falling on my face or anything, although there were a few times when I caught myself, haha...

Man, I'm so glad I decided to go running with Mohsin today...I was with Shar and Mohsin; one ride meant quick homeness, the other meant torture on my lungs...and after a much rushed mental debate, I ended up going with Mohsin...a choice I do not regret in the least! Haha...anyways, here's the fleshed-out version of how the evening went...[probably long and boring to all who weren't there, and to many who were, haha...]

When Mohsin and I got to the track, we realized that it was hella windy, and that our running shoes did nothing to grip the icy snow...but more importantly, we realized that we were the first ones there, and were all alone, haha...however, after little deliberation, we decided to start running anyways...we ran our first lap, and still nobody showed up...we ran our second lap, and nobody showed up...in the third, Goon finally arrived and joined us. However, he then started to hot-dog around with his "oh, look at me, I'm so fit!" attitude, lol...because of this, I started egging him on, telling him to do that funny backwards-running spinning-ballerina thing he did before, and much to me and Mohsin's chagrin, he actually started doing it! On the frickin ice! Hahaha! But anyways, after the fourth lap, Mohsin and I realized that we couldn't go on any longer and decided to walk it off...Goon continued on and I think lapped us a few times, lol...anyways, after a few more one-lap runs, Andrew and friends finally decided to show up, hahaha...Andrew, Kyle, and Jamieson then started to run, but Mohsin and I just didn't have it in us to start up with them...however, once they were on the other side of the track, Mohsin, Goon, and I decided to run a lap also, which meant we didn't see them for a while...then, as Mohsin and then myself stopped, Goon continued to fly by everyone, and continued to hot-dog around, haha...anyways, after a bit, we all ended up at the clock-post thing and finally decided to run together...well, it kinda went off into pairs, but together nonetheless...Jamieson and I ran together, forgot who the other pairs were...anyways, after that lap, we all just started walking together, and awesomeness eminated from all around us...that, or B.O., but whatever..."Metallica likes to casually whack it!" haha...anyways, just hanging out with the guys was the perfect way to top off an awesome evening...one of the best nights I've had in a while! Well, maybe last week's running, but whatever...hahaha!

When I finally got home, I realized that my nipples must've froze over...how do I know this? Because when they thawed out at home, they HURT LIKE A BITCH! Haha...I always seem to wear unwarm clothes whenever I run, lol...anyways, to get away from all this frozen nipple business, nothing beats a steaming bowl of lugao...lugao being congee for all you non-flips, or rice porridge for all you ignorant white honkeys, haha...better than chicken soup, I tells ya! Well, maybe a tie, depending on my mood, lol...

Anyways, that's enough of this running nonsense, I'm gonna touch upon the many other aspects of my life now! And go into egregious detail! But I kid...I'll try not to ramble on for much longer!

Well, life without infatuation is really coming along quite nicely, and I'm seeing that I have many options open to me at the moment...a fairly nice feeling, I must say! But who could these girls be, you ask? Tsk tsk tsk, that's for me to know and for you to find out...in person! Heh...well, to plug a number on all this, there's 3-4 at the moment that I find as major prospects; this meaning that if I so deem them worthy enough to ask out, there would be a good chance that they'd agree...but still you wonder who these girls are?? Fine, here's a hint: they're all shorter than I am! That kinda narrows the field a bit, eh? Lol...well, maybe I'm living in a fantasy world, but it's better than the infatuation fantasy of the previous few months...

But enough about my seemingly-complicated-but-really-not love life...

Hmmm, what else to talk about...gots my books, found my old MacroEcon book after a terrible amount of searching through boxes in the garage/my room...movers brought our new dining table, leather swivel chair, and cabinet today...didn't do jack in terms of schoolwork...went to eat with Shar and Angela today: went to Angela's place for a bit and saw Envy (man, she's like 3x the size as last I've saw, and now she's all uber-friendly, which is awesome! Man, now I wanna have a pet...), then we went to the mall, shopped a bit, then to McDonalds (mayonnaise and ketchup is actually quite good! tangy mayonnaise, mmmm...) ...got back to school, hung out with Kris at the chill spot while most everyone else went to the comp lab...Kris made a frickin fort outta backpacks! That's frickin hilarious! Then Angela got back from the comp lab, and Rob got outta class (while Shar & Moe went to class), and we had a field day yukking it up due to the hilarity that Kris always brings to the group...haha, Angela kept flinging these little rolled-up paper balls at Kris, and the Reaction that he finally gave was hilarious! "Well you know what? That's it, I've had enough!" *crumples/rips a paper into three pieces, throws each crumpled piece at us in one chuck!* Haha, you guys should've seen it! Kris as south, Angie as north, Rob as east, Me as west, and he threw the papers at each of us at the same time! HAHAHA! Well, I guess you just had to be there...anyways, Rob and Angie left to take the bus, leaving Kris and I to do work / horse around...Mohsin came for the break and talked to us for a bit, and shortly after that Kris left himself, leaving me alone to get some reading done...Shar then came and we talked for a bit, her being in Psych we talked about hypnosis and stuff and that was hilarious..."I can't catch the squirrel!" Lol, awesome! Anyways, she got off at quarter to ten, me staying 'til ten 'cause she was giving me a ride...however, once we got to the main floor we saw Mohsin, and as we started talking, we figured out that he was to go running tonight...he asked if I wanted to come too, and you know the rest...

Now that I think about it, I had a pretty nice day today! Wait, pretty nice? It was frickin awesome!!! And you know what?? I'm awesome! SCHAWING!!! Hooray for everything!!! Haha...

Man, my frickin neck is all stiff and junk, and my lower abdomen hurts like hell now...well worth the pain though...and hmmm, I seem to have sufficiently blogged my guts out...not to mention that it's frickin 2am, haha...therefore, I'm off to bed!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: Holy crap, this has gotta be one of my longest posts ever! Or at least the longest paragraphs ever, haha...I say it's to make up for the freakin' ass short posts I had earlier this week, lol...]

Time passes, things change...back.

Well, alls I've gotta say is that I've been having a weekend of extremes...

First of all, Andrew's party was frickin' awesome! But that was a given...

Besides that, however, I've been reverting back into exactly what I was fearing this past winter break: a loner nerd who plays videogames all day and never goes out.

To go from super social at the party, back to being hermitted within my home is a horrible feeling...one that I've been drowing out with movies and even more videogames, not to mention stuffing my face...but lets not dwell on this negativity, for I've gotta look to the future...

The immediate future being the impending strike...

Although I've been hoping that there is a strike, therefore making up for the rediculously short winter break, I know that this would not be the best for me in the end, because without the daily schooling ritual, my social life seems extremely limited...and the snow outside on the streets just compounds my unwillingness to get off my ass and do something productive...

But enough about my laziness, the very fact that I'm blogging at 3am instead of on the sofa watching tv means I'm at least admitting all of this to myself...

And another thing as long as I'm admitting things to myself, at Andrews party, I've realized many things, and have had a few epiphanies...

First of all, I have confirmed what has been racking my brain all week: I seem to have moved on...not completely, mind you, but enough so that I'm not consciously jealous or angry at the things that used to make me feel so...very good stuff, because now I see that things would've been very difficult if everything had "worked out"...but how was I able to get passed my feelings? I seem to have a definite knack for loosing interest in females who are taken, and the last I've checked, it's close enought to consider her taken...and I'm actually quite happy now! Hooray for everything! However, I'm worried that subconsciously my inaction over the last few days were influenced by this realization, but I've decided not to dwell on that theory...because, I might add, my next epiphany is much more of a reason...

I'm afraid that I couldn't take my own advice from that blog entry a while back...I seemed to have been blinded by my infatuation, and have missed out on the many "opportunities" that I would've seen...for everyone who was at the party and paying attention to me (a.k.a. no-one, but I'll continue), it would seem kinda obvious about how I reached this epiphany...looking back, I'm seeing my actions as kinda obvious, although surprisingly unintentional this time...but not that it really matters anymore, for it seems that I'm too late...but I'm rambling...

My idea of perfection changes constantly from infatuation to infatuation, but my type still remains fairly consistant...it's just that when I actually found my perfect type, I was blinded by my infatuation...and I guess that's what I was really trying to say to begin with...

But no more of this crazy falling back into lethargy, with my videogames and emulators, no not for me! I'm going to look upon the next while as I have looked upon the winter break, assuming there is a strike of course...so as God as my witness, I shall be social! I shall have friends! I will meet new people and my prospects shall grow! SCHAWING!!!

Too bad I was infatuated though, because things would've been tres different...

In any case, I still gotta hope for the best for me...maybe I'll start my "I'm short, fat, and ugly" bit again and start shaping up, lose my holiday weight and all that...

But we shall see, oh yes...we shall see indeed!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

SCHAWIIIIIING!!!!!!

Holy crap! This is frickin amazing! I don't have a class in surrey anymore! SCHAWING!!!

Man, I had to change my psych class to monday nights, but who really gives a flying "hoot" if I'm able to take Macro in Richmond! BOO-YAH!!! Almost logged out of the school comp, so it was a good thing I checked the classes to see if spaces became available...that's freakin' AWESOME!!!

That's frickin cool...my psych teacher hasn't changed, so notes aren't a problem for that, and I got my old Micro teacher for my other class, so everything should be hunky dorey!

And now I have no classes on wednesdays! Hooray for everything!

Ah, hooray for everything, indeed...

Sooo lazy...

Well, it seems that I've gotten very lazy with my blogging...I was going to continue the last post when I got home, but decided not to...however, I did end up watching two movies before I went to bed, haha...man, I'm a smart one, eh?

I could ramble on about how I keep staying up too late, or more about the kickass snow, or about a plethora of other little things that happened, but I just don't see the point anymore...not interesting enough to get me out of my laziness...

I don't know, I kinda feel like being more philosophical in my blogs...perhaps I'll start a separate one just for that on msn spaces, once I stop wallowing in my laziness...but until then, ...meh, forgot what I was gonna say, too lazy to remember...oh well...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

In Surrey...

Well, I'm just killing time here at the surrey campus, and I've gotta say, having to go to surrey for a class SUCKS!!

'Nuff said...for now, at least... I'll blog more later...

Until later, I guess...

New Years Resolutions

But, as before, my day...woke up later than I wanted to, but still made it to sushi with Kris and Rob, that was fun...then went to Richmond centre, then to chapters, then to superpet...all in all, a fun time with the guys...wanted to have that movie night thing, but it wasn't meant to be...went home, watched Bowling for Columbine again, and also watched Pi again, and I must say that Pi is completely different than I remembered...Pi is an amazing movie! haha...but enough of my day, onto my resolutions!

As I have thought about how to do this, I've decided that I wouldn't be able to just list them all down, for I tend to ramble...therefore, I've thought of the perfect solution: Categories!


About Health
--> In 2004, I've seen myself go from the healthiest I've ever been in spring, to going back to how I was a few years ago right now...because of this, my First New Years Resolution (NYR#1) would be to lose some excess flab and get into better shape. There are a few things that need to happen for this to work:
-First of all, mentally want to be in better shape;
-Secondly, get myself into a routine, a habit of working out;
-Thirdly, get into sports once again (most likely during the summer, where I shall definately play ultimate in the VUL w/ Carly);
-Fourth, eat less and eat properly, which means less dining out with the crew and more packing lunches.


About Money
--> Over the past few months, I've tended to spend way WAY too much money, mostly because of eating out all the time as well as playing pool or other such money burners...therefore, to rectify this problem I must do one of two things: Decrease Expenses or Increase Revenue. However, I prefer to do a little of both, which leads me to NYR#2: To get a job, and to choose my costs more wisely. For this to happen, I must do the following...
-First, I need to suck it up and actually really want to have a job. Probably not while at school, but definately in the summer...I can't keep taking my uncle's money for tuition...
-Second, I must really work at my resume and cover lettering and not just nonchalantly as I have done in the past.
-Third, assuming this lack of income over the next few months, I must learn to handle the money that I irregularly obtain in a way that doesn't see it leave my hands within a few days...this means I have to limit my socialization or at least my social spending, for when I was geeky in both highschool and this summer I spent practically nothing...


About Friends
--> On the topic of socialization, I've realized that I've been having the time of my life over the past few months, mainly due to the fact that I seem to finally have people I consider true friends, which I talk to on a regular basis, who I can count on more than one hand! Heh...but seriously, I believe that I've been getting drunk off of this newfound happiness, so far as to forgo much of what I used to deem important; good things, such as much less videogames and tv, as well as bad things, such as less family/school/etc. Therefore, NYR#3: Learn to balance my time between the amazing socialization I've been enjoying and what I mentally deem to be important in my life, school being the biggest example...but once again, steps are needed...
-First, learn to say no when my friends wanna do something...this will definately be the hardest thing, for it's hard to turn down the chance to feel included...
-Second, spend less time at the chill spot and more time studying in the library...again, terribly difficult due to the same reason as above...
-Third, despite my previous ramblings, I must continue to have an active social life where I'm able to just phone someone up and go do something on the fly...
-Fourth, and probably most important for myself and my self esteem, hang out with my friends on the weekend, for I haven't consistently done this for what seems like decades...well, probably one decade at least...


About School
--> As eluded to above, I have to do better academically...not that I'm doing bad, mind you, but I'm definately not reaching my potential at all...and my work habits have definately turned to crap, which is the complete opposite of what I wanted outta kwantlen...Now, all of this taken into consideration, my NYR#4 would be to Work harder at school. Nothing more, nothing less. I've just gotta try harder...but how??
-First, find a balance between socialization and studying, as mentioned above...
-Second, get into a routine which integrates studying into my schedule (as well as working out, socialization, etc etc...)
-Third, actually study during the time I allotted to studying, and not sit around the chill spot and socialize, especially before a friggin test! Heh...
-Fourth, learn to study at home; which means I must find a place that I'm able to work and not be distracted by other things. Dang, this be difficult...
-Fifth, I gotta mentally fix my focus and be able to study without having the pressures of an impending due date / test. This work habit in particular has eluded me for my entire academic career, and is specifically what I wanted to be able to learn at Kwantlen...


About Sleep
--> Haha, I looked at the clock and decided I had to put this in here...it's 3am, and I've got a class in 5 hours! Lol! Therefore, my NYR#5 would be to Sleep More!!! Actually, this could be my easiest resolution yet...
-First, learn to turn of the tv at night!
-Second, stop being on the computer so late! A.k.a. less blogging/chatting!
-Third...actually, these are pretty much the only reasons why I stay up so late!


About Love
--> Ah, my love life is one complicated web of mystery...HAHA! But seriously though, sometimes I feel like I'm thinking too much about my decided lack of female companionship, and recent events have made me realize that my life shouldn't be ruled by this...therefore, my NYR#6 is definately to Not run my life according to my heart, for when my emotions blind me, nothing seems to turn out right...however, thinking completely with my head isn't right either...man, this won't be easy...
-First, I've gotta stop thinking that I'm not complete without a girl around my arm...I've gotta be okay with being single...
-Second, I can't just sit back and let things happen, because opportunities will definately pass me by...I can't always date the agressive girls, cause they're technically not my type...heh, for me to date my type, I've gotta step up and do something...but I'm rambling...
-Third, I've gotta start being more open about how I truly feel, and not just do all this posturing I seem to do at times...
-Fourth, I gotta get out more! Open up my chances! Meet some new people! Because as it is, I don't know many females, heh...
-Fifth, think about other ways to be happy with my love life, because I know that I'm missing a few I've thought about before...


About Faith
--> And last, but certainly not least, I really have to try working harder spiritually...for a while now, I seemed to have put my faith on the backburner, but can't seem to know exactly why...which leads me to my fifth and final resolution, NYR#7: Become more active in my religion, and stop being such a lukewarm christian, to use a worn churchy cliche...and for this to happen, etc etc...
-First, find my bible, which is packed away in a box somewhere, and start to read it once more...
-Second, I gotta try much harder to stop my most obvious sinning...well most obvious to myself at least...
-Third, be more active at church...for although I am technically fairly active as it is, my heart hasn't been in it for quite a while now...
-Fourth, I've gotta finish those books by E.G. White that I bought two years ago, haha...


To sum up, the most important thing I must do for the new year is time management. With better scheduling, I'll definately be able to do these resolutions...all 1-7, for I could schedule working out and studying, reducing excessive socialization thus decreasing expenses, pine less over my lack of female companionship, sleep more, and still find time to read the bible! SCHAWING!

And these are my new years resolutions, as abnormally stated as can be, lol...however, I chose to have a longwinded post purposely; not only because it frees my chaotic mind to be able to ramble, but because it also makes people averse to reading my blog...as it is, I would assume that only the people who really cared about me would bother to drudge through this mania, and for those of you who did bother reading, I thank you...

And to those of you who just skipped ahead...heh...

Anyways, as it is incredibly late, and I have a freakin' 8am class tomorrow, I'm off! So here's to a great new year!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Year in Review

But first, must talk about today, if only briefly...woke up, watched Canada kick some european ass, uncle picked me up, picked up my cousins in vancouver, went to a crazy good Ethiopian restaurant on east broadway where we ate food by using a type of flatbread to pick up our meal (i.e. no utensils), went to Tinseltown and watched an uber-cool movie by the name of House of Flying Daggers (which I forgot was even showing in theatres!), frickin awesome in a love-story-meets-crouching-tiger-esque kinda way, then we went out for the best ice-cream I've ever had, it's in east van on venebles called La Casa or something (and it has like 198 frickin flavours to choose from!), and I ended up choosing Cinnamon ice-cream, and it was amazing...all in all, I had a pretty good day with my uncle and cousins...

But anyways, onto the bulk of my discussion! Most of which would be boring as hell, so read at your own discretion, once again...

Seeing that everyone seems to be reminiscing on 2004, I thought I'd do the same thing...except in my case, I'll try to go monthly, and hopefully I'll be able to remember what the hell actually happened in this mostly awesome year...

January
--> Ah, January...I remember this month...during my weeks off for winter break, I fell back into my lazy / insomniatic ways, and I could never quite recover from that...basically, in my first month back for the toughest semester of BCIT, I was lazy as hell...my marks, especially in Tax, fell dramatically...but during that time, I was having a blast! Always eating out with the guys (and girl), best example being Dim Sum Mondays...this was also around the time that I started watching hockey religiously...so much so that I started watching on campus in the lounge area in the gym! Hmmm, speaking of the gym, I decided to really start working out, not just the once a week if I felt like it thing I started in september...and that was my January in a nutshell!

February
--> February was more of the same, really...got even more into the canucks, continued to hang out with the guys, etc etc...however, after some disasterous marks on my first quizzes (the first time I actually failed anything!), I decided to pick up my socks academically, if only slightly...I was still relatively lazy...oh yes, and this was also the time when I started learning how to play the congas! Apparently I have a natural grasp on internal rhythm or something, lol...but anyways, I picked it up fairly quickly, and within a few weeks people were congradulating me on how good I was (which was actually kinda embarrassing...); "Wow, you're so good!" "Not really, I only started a week ago..." etc etc, lol...I've probably forgotten some things, but this was basically my February in a nutshell!

March
--> In March, I continued with my academic mediocrity at BCIT, my socialization, my working out, and my canucks...speaking of canucks, I watched the Bertuzzi incident when as it happened on t.v., what a horrible game for Linden to surpass Smyl; however, the trade deadline and the ensuing win streak to take the division title was a pretty freakin' awesome time indeed...hmmm, I can't seem to remember much other than that, and I'm sure that lots of other stuff happened also, but I guess that's what happens when I don't have a blog to write down my events, haha...dang, this was when I had my spring break, but I don't even remember what the heck I did...but oh well, I guess this was March in a nutshell!

April
--> April was a fun time...playoffs, school nearing an end, actually seeing a noticeable difference in my physique...also, this was when I started to really get into the NHL as a whole and not just the canucks, all thanks to David and getting me into an online hockey pool! Haha...other than watching the playoffs, and unfortunately seeing the canucks fall to the flames in 7, I can't seem to remember april...stupid hockey taking up all my memory! Lol...I guess that was my April in a nutshell!

May
--> May! My birthday! Did nothing! Yay! But anyways, may was frickin insane, finals week was brutal...actually, for the first time at BCIT, our finals were placed over two weeks, which I desperately needed due to my harsh slacking off...actually, this was the hardest I've ever studied and crammed for, because I knew that if I didn't, I would fail them all...and that was a scary feeling...so during the two weeks, I practically locked myself away in the library for hours at a time...many hours at a time...and eventually was able to pull through unscathed! It was the worst marks I had since highschool, but I still managed to do relatively awesome, so I can't complain...as far as playoffs goes, I still watched hockey a bunch, since I had to see how my players were doing, lol...oh, and I also remember feeling very sad, because I knew it would probably be the last time I'd talk with my friends from BCIT...and I was right, haven't talked with them since then...I guess it kinda got me depressed, as I seemed to be depressed for most of the summer...but more on that later, for this was my May in a nutshell!

June
--> Oh, June June June...how I wasted thee...I spent practically the entire time playing frickin' Fire Emblem on my gba emulator...and after 100+ hours (probably closer to 200+), I still hadn't beaten the game! I was definately back to my insomniatic ways; back to playing video games all night, watching early morning Arthur and Lois and Clark (Superman), etc etc...definately not a highlight of my year...however, I also took breaks from my game to watch the last few games of the playoffs, and my bandwagon jumping onto Tampa Bay worked out for me, lol! Also, near the end of June I had my graduation ceremony, where unfortunately none of my friends attended...however, it did kinda surpise me to realize that I graduated BCIT with honours! "And now here are the Graduating Class of '04...(name), (name), (name) with honours, (name)..." said the speaker; "Oh man, I wonder if I got honours" I thought to myself while in line to get my diploma; "(name), (name), (name), Justin Beaudry, with honours"; "Holy crap! I got honours at BCIT!" ; And that was my June in a nutshell!

July
--> In July, I started to realize the errors of my ways, and actually got down to making my resume and sending it out to places to work...unfortunately, I was extremely lazy while doing this, and after I handed out my resume I just waited for a phonecall...I waited for the rest of the month! Haha...I think at this time I started to fall back into my Civ III insomnia, playing that into the wee hours of the night then watching tv early morning, etc etc...however, this was also the time when my mom bought our new house, so that was kinda cool...don't remember if we started doing anything with it yet, but I'm pretty sure I didn't really help out 'til next month, so I'll talk about that more later...oh right, this was also when I got the letter saying that I didn't get into UBC because of the frickin rediculous prerequisite requirements...I mean, I got honours at BCIT, I frickin deserved to get into 1st yr UBC!!! But whatever...I was extremely embarassed, so registered for Kwantlen in secret...I was so miserable at this time...however, I rationalized it by realizing that Kwantlen is closer and cheaper than UBC, plus I wouldn't take any more time to get my degree, plus Kris and Robert went there so I woudln't be alone like at BCIT! Then I started to get happy about kwantlen, stopped playing so much video games etc etc, and all in all just felt better...so anyways, this was my July in a nutshell!

August
--> The first thing I remember about august, I got violently ill for a few days...vomiting, hallucinations, it wasn't pretty...I got my felt-like-oblivion hallucination again, freaked the hell outta me once again, except this time I was semi-coherent enough to calm myself down and watch some Arthur on tv, lol...anyways, I was supposed to start really helping out the day I got sick, and I felt bad for that...but anyways, for the rest of the month I pretty much just helped out at the new house, although much of my time was spent playing N64 with my cousins, lol...played a bunch of pokemon stadium, influenced me into getting Leaf Green for my gba, haha...and yes, that game was awesome!...oh yes, watching the World Cup of Hockey was also pretty cool! And that was my August in a nutshell!

September
--> Ah, September, the beginning of the new school year! I had such high academic hopes! I started off reading my textbooks before going to class, doing all my homework immediately, taking short breaks by playing pokemon, having good studying skills for once...and then I started hanging out on 3rd floor, haha...I remember the first time I met everyone, too: Met up with Robert, decided to hang out at the chill spot, met Shar and Angela and started talking with them, and since I had no classes and Robert did, I spent the next while just talking with the girls, and to my amazement, I was actually able to hold a conversation! With practically strangers! Lol...also, once classes started coming out, I started meeting everyone else, and that night we all went to Starbucks to hang out...and man, I can't believe how quickly I fit in! I'm usually shy as hell, but not this time! I knew then that things would be different this time around, and it most definately has...oh, and as a sidenote, not having hockey sucked, lol...and this was my September in a nutshell!

October
--> Oh yes, October was a month to remember, that's for sure...many new things started for me, the biggest things I remember would be starting this blog and starting to learn how to play the guitar! I must say, this blog has been a godsend for me, for I've always wanted a diary/journal, but I never liked actually writing in a book...no backspace, lol...and I've always wanted to play the guitar, as I've blogged about earlier...also, this was the first time I had to write papers, and man did I ever hate writing those papers...however, this was nothing compared to later on...but anyways, in October I became closer to my friends at Kwantlen, kept my grades up, and was pretty much having the time of my life! However, the one downside to all this would be my weekends, which were still crap...spent the majority of my weekends playing pokemon, instead of finding a job, or work out, or especially hang out with friends...but that's alright, because at the end of October it was Angela's debut! Hooray! The party was awesome, that's for damn sure! The best part, of course, was when I started the frickin mosh pit! Ohhh yeeahhhhh! And although not everything was perfect about that night, a.k.a. Roger-type situations, it will still be remembered as one of the top highlights of this year...so that was my October in a nutshell!

November
--> After the debut, I think I started to get addicted to socializing...I remember November as the time when I started harsh slacking in my schoolwork to hang out with my friends...not that I'm complaining, haha...actually, November was quite a rollercoaster for me, as my blogs seem to show...but I'd rather feel the emotional ups and downs than not feel anything at all, as per my insomniatic summers...but overall, I was having the time of my life! I've got friends! I'm awesome! lol...also, this is when I started playing pool again, and I have now become sufficiently addicted! Hehe...but now that I think about it, why am I addicted to pool? Or is pool what I'm addicted to?? But lets not go off on a tangent, lol...oh, and as a sidenote, guess what else I started in November? SCHAWING!!! lol...and that was my November in a nutshell!


December
--> Well, I'm at the final month of 2004, and I've gotta say, it was probably the most interesting month I've had this whole year, if not my whole life...with my crazy socialization, to my crazy feelings, to my crazy all-nighters, to my crazy registration, to my crazy finals, to the crazy fact that I didn't waste my break! This month was definately the highlight of my year...what a way to end what was probably the best year of my life! Hooray for December! Not that it was all sugar and gummi bears, oh no, for December was even more of a roller coaster than November! But as I said earlier, rollercoasters are fun :-) I'd get into more detail of this month, but my previous blogs seem to do it more justice...so, all in all, this was my December in a nutshell!

And that was 2004 in a nutshell! Well, maybe a coconut shell, lol...I've got to say though, this really has been one terrific year...I'd have to say that, taken as a whole, this year was definately the best year of my life...then again, my best summer is still '01, and I've had many other amazing months, but not for the whole year...but no rambling on for me! I've already spent a few hours on this post! 2004 was great, 'nuff said! SCHAWING!!! Heh...

Next blog: New Years Resolutions! Yes, a little late, but what the heck...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Happy New Year everyone!

Well, came back from Cindy's party, and that was awesome! Bunch of people came, good food, videogames, it was a blast...about a dozen people were there, listed on Jamieson's blog..I'm lazy, so sue me...

The highlight of the night was definately playing PaRappa the Rapper:
"In the rain or in the snow, I got the funky flow, but now I really gotta go!"
"I gotta believ-I got-I g-I gotta be-I gott-I gotta beli-I gotta believe!"
And other such hilarity...many other awesome quotes, but they elude me at this time of night...as well as most of the other things that happened that night, all of which I remember asbeing basically fun...but not "too fun" or whatever, haha...

Which reminds me, tonight was the first time I got pulled over by the police! It was only a roadcheck, but it still got my heart a-racing! I was kinda worried, because I was kinda tired driving home, but I knew nothing would really happen. However, I did find it kinda funny when the officer pushed her face about a foot in front of mine, stared directly into my eyes, and asked "Did you have anything to drink tonight?" Kinda invading my personal space, and it was kinda uncomfortable, but mostly I just thought it was funny, lol...but afterwards, I felt so empowered! I talked to the police, and was able to get by unscathed! SCHAWING!! Awesome way to ring in the new year, feeling all independent alone in my car talking with the cops! Haha! Okay, so it does sound kinda dinky, but whatever...I thought it was pretty cool...

Anyways, it is 4am, and I do kinda have to be somewhere tomorrow at 10am, not to mention the fact that I'm going to Gibsons, so I should get off...wow, 4am, that's nearly exactly 2 years since I had my first ever sabotage-esque flash animation...freaked the hell outta me, stupid optical illusion made me stare at a room seeing what's wrong, had a frickin' picture in the picture, the kind that kept going into itself, so I kinda got lost in that for a while, then BOOM! the frickin' picture/scream popped up...it felt like death! That feeling stayed with me for a helluva long time...was still with me when I watched the Ring, so that completely freaked me out too...but now I'm just rambling again...

...what the heck? How did I manage to talk about another negative in my supposed-to-be-positive blog?? That's a bunch of junk! It was an awesome day! Hooray for everything and all that! And happy new year everyone!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

p.s. - Oh man, I still haven't made my resolutions...gonna be on my next post I guess!