Good day...

I must say, it was a fairly good day, but I know it's just the calm before the freak-out storm, for I have a paper due, and a presentation too, in sociology...heh, kinda rhymed a bit there...but anyways, here was my day:

Well, I stayed up all night, drove to school at 10am to drop off homework, then drove back home (because I realized that I forgot my wallet, incl. my licence, haha...). So I went back home, showered, ate, then went back to school...It was weird, because after finishing my paper I was so freakin' wired, but once I got to school again at 12pm, I frickin' practically fell over! I slept at the chill spot for a good 2+ hours, which was fairly nice...and then I went out with Shar, Mojdah, Cindy, and Sammy to RPM, gots myself this sour soup with lamb dumplings from the Halal place...it was pretty good, but I forgot to ask for no greens, haha...then we went back to school, I had psych at 4pm, gave my paper etc...I actually stayed in class, which kinda surprised me, since I skipped my other classes today...but u know, whatever, psych is a fun class...anyways, afterwards, I thought I'd get some math assignment done (hahaha...), but mostly I just socialized with Shar and Roger for a few hours, then roger had to leave and Mohsin started socializing as well until Kwantlen closed down...

So all in all, it wasn't a terribly productive day, but it was crazy fun, spending most of the day socializing, or sleeping, etc etc...kinda figured that the morning stuff doesn't really count, since I haven't really went to sleep yet, haha...

Anyways, just wanted to write down that today was a good day, and that it was a nice vacation before the brutality that will commence tomorrow...lol.

Here's to all nighters! Hooray! Yeah, one's enough, lol...And here's to papers! *crickets chirp*

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

I'm so screwed!!!

Holy crap! It's freakin 4am, and I've barely started my paper! And you know why??? Frickin Rex Navarrete! That guy is frickin hilarious!

And now I can see myself listening to this guy for like the entire night! I'm laughing my ass off!

And it all started because I started listening to some Andrew E., gots me into remembering that old Maritess vs. The Superfriends comedy thing I was so into in grade 10...so I went to the Rex Navarrete website and found it, and as a plus, there was a hilarious introduction! You gotta hear this! (RealPlayer)

And now I downloaded a whole bunch of his stuff, and I'm listening to that instead of doing my work! That sucks! You know what else sucks? I've got school at 10! Stupid having to give my homework!

But you know, whatever...I've figured it out, even if I get 60% on this paper, I'm still able to pull off an A if I do well on my last test...and here I am, wasting time justifying my lack of conviction towards doing my homework, once again...haha...

Man, I'm actually starting to get tired...and yet I still procrastinate...lol

Well, I'm gonna at least stop writing in my blog, get at least one distraction out of the way...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Wow

"I have never had a group of friends that had so much drama..."
-->Regular member of the crew.

Well, in the afternoon, I was just going to blog about my weekend, but my computer crashed and I didn't feel like retyping, so meh...here's the jist of it...

Happy Belated Birthday to Reuben and Ahmad!

Stupid internet was down all weekend...missed Reuben's bday dinner! Sorry man! ...stayed up super late sat. night watching tv, waiting for my sis to get off the comp, she gets off at 5am, too tired to get off couch, went to sleep...Sunday night was awesome! Ahmad's bday, went to Cactus club, then split off to pub (with Ahmad and others) and to Timmy Ho's (me incl.)...fun time hanging out etc etc...forget most details, but I know I had a great time...because of French Vanilla, stayed up until 7am doing homework...

So I woke up at 1:30ish today, did squat until around 4:15 when I decided to get to school...thought I'd get some math done, but nope, haha...and then I hear about all this drama with all these people, which sucks...alls I've gotta say is that people made mistakes, and as Bernard puts it, "Both sides seem to be taking it rather well, so I'll try to stay out of this." I just wish everything will turn out for the best in the end...

And now I'm going off to play some pool...and yes, I have a psych paper due tomorrow that I haven't started yet, so what?? lol...I know I'm screwing myself over for sociology paper and presentation, but what the hell, I've made my decision, I'll take the consequences...and honestly, what's the worst that can happen? I get a C on my papers and pres (because I know I can at least pull that off), which would drop my total marks for both classes probably by one letter grade...I seem to be doing well enough in those classes, so I don't really feel too compelled to try my hardest...

Man, that's so bad...I wanna have better study habits, but I keep slacking off without many consequences...jeez, I wanna say that I'm cursed by being able to slack off and get good grades, but that just sounds so conceited...which is why I always cringe when I talk about my marks...

But I'm running off in a tangent, and I don't know what the hell I'm saying anymore...I'm just trying to write anything I can down on the keyboard and mostly it's all gibberish...and I wanna stop...but I'm not...stopping, that is...heh...

Well, that was junk...time to leave...

POOL!!! hehe...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Whatawaste :-)

Yeah, just wasted the past 1 and a half hours...stupid msn! [it's 12:50am right now, btw...] but you know, whatever, talking to friends takes priority over schoolwork anyday :-)

I'm so screwed for the next few weeks, and yet I still find time to play pool! So what if I'm screwing myself over? I'm happy, and it's keeping me sane! And (taking a saying from Roger) I tend to see a positive correlation between my happiness and my marks, lol...wait a sec, that's not true, my best semester marks ever was when I was breaking up with my gf...I guess because school was a distraction, I don't know...but anyways, there goes my reason for consistently blowing off my schoolwork to hang out with my friends! Haha...

Man, pool was fun today though...and it's funny, because I tend to have these super crazy shots that look amazing, and then I suck for most of the night! And then I do another amazing run, and then I completely suck again! But whatever, it doesn't matter that I scratched 2-3 times on the 8-ball, the point is that I had fun with my friends :-)

Anyways, I should get off and actually start doing my work...but first, I feel like listing a bunch of cool songs :-)

Rockapella - Carmen Sandiego (extended version)
Eiffel 65 - Blue / Too Much of Heaven / Playstation
Evan and Jeron - Crazy for this Girl
Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want
Verve Pipe - The Freshman
Nine Days - Absolutely (Story of a Girl)
SoulDecision - Gravity
Backstreet Boys - Get Down
and finally,
Barenaked Ladies - Brian Wilson / Old Apartment / Jane / Take It Outside

Lol, now I've got Carmen Sandiego stuck in my head! "The warrant! The warrant! OOO, THE CHAIN! OO-OO-OO-OOO, THE CHAIN!!! ...Monday to Friday at 5!" Haha, I'm such a nostalgia freak...but I've got to say, Rockapella is frickin amazing!

Jeez, it's frickin 1:30, and I haven't even opened my math yet! And yet, it calls to me from its perch...and I'm losing the urge to fight it...bah! screw it! I'm gonna guitar it up!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: I don't know why this post is doubled, and I can't seem to find a way to fix it...but no big deal, haha...]
[Edit#2: Figures...after I posted this edit, the problem is fixed, lol...]

...but anyways.

"You'd go out on Friday night, I'll stay in but that's alright, 'cause I have found a click to call my own!"

Haha, just reminiscing on how great Undergrads is, haha...and I just found out that it's out on DVD! That's frickin amazing! Now I gots ta buy the Undergrads set, along with my Buffy season 6, lol!

Just watched my most favourite episode of Undergrads tonight, the one where Nitz falls in love with Jesse...and even though there's so many inconsistencies with that episode, i.e. Nitz already seeing Jesse naked in the Exposed Expo, I still love it...c'mon, Nitz falls for Jesse! That's cool! But then Jesse rejects him, which makes no sense at all, because she said in the last episode that she's liked Nitz all year! WHAT'S UP WITH THAT?!

And now for some cool quotes from that episode:

Nitz thinking:
"Does your friend secretly have a crush on you? Absolutely not...absolutely not...absolutely hot...very, very hot...damn, she's hot!"

And then:
"Okay, I'm gonna make my move on three. Okay, move making is gonna happen in one... two......... two and a half...... three!"
(Jesse walking across the room)
Jesse: "Later Nitz."
Nitz: "Crap..."

Nitz, while falling asleep after ranting about Cal:
*grumble* Ate my ravioli...*grumble* He can eat my ass...*grumble*

Gimpy: "Heh, good one...hey, I am so not PC whipped..."
Gimpy thinking:
[ShePrime]: "I think this background would look best."
[Gimpy]: "Whatever you say dear..."
[Rocko]: "PC whipped, wwpsh! PC whipped, wwpsh!"
[Cal]: "I say nothing applicable to the current situation, guy."

Nitz in a tirade after Cal ticks him off, goes to see Jesse:
Nitz: *grumble grumble*
Jesse: "So how's Cal?"
Nitz: *grumble grumble* ...BREAK HIS FACE SO GOOD!!

And then:
Jesse: "Pat my bunny, you'll feel better."
Nitz: *grumble* No, Cal - So - Dead!
Jesse: "PAT MY BUNNY!"
Nitz: "Fine! But I don't see how...ooo, soft..."

Gimpy, trying to stop computer virus:
"...stupid everything!"

And onto the other episodes! :

Nitz: "All the weight I lost has gone straight to my ass!"

Cal: "Don't I look naked in my naked t-shirt, guy?"

Gimpy, naked after sheding sneak clothes, to R.A.:
Gimpy: "Do you have a problem with my sweaty manhood?"

Rocko: "Shut up Cal's voice in my head!"
Cal's voice in Rocko's head: "Sorry, guy."

Gimpy, teaching Rocko and Cal how to play Quake:
"You must master your joystick, as a fisherman masters bait"

Cal in bathroom, heavily breathing:
"Hey guy, I'm mastering my joystick..."

Talking to Rocko in jail:
Prisoner: "Shaddup! I'm-a-gonna make you MY bitch!"
[Sniffs Rocko's adult diaper]
Prisoner: "Ewwwww! Stinky!"

Gimpy: [giving Nitz a fake I.D.] "Remember, young Padawan. With great power, comes great responsibility. Heh-heh, Spider-Man."

Rocko: "Ugh! You drink this crap? What is it?"
Nitz: "Water."
Rocko: "Wah tur?"

Rocko: "Okay geniuses, what's it like to kiss a girl?"
Nitz & Gimpy: "Shut up"

Rocko: "You're right, I shouldn't punch Cal 'cause he's the mascot... I should punch 'cause he's Cal!"
[punches Cal]

Cal: "Hey guy, do you know anybody who can tell me all the things that are wrong with me?"
Rocko: "Cal, I've been waiting for this day for a long long time. I hate you Cal, I hate you so much, so very very much."
Cal: "Guy, do you know anybody or not?"

[The title of Rocko's book]
"Things Cal Does That Make Me Want to Kill Him Dead Dead Dead Dead DEAD!"

Cal: "I learned that when you ask women for money, they give it to you. With no strings attached. Except for sex."

The Click on things that are annoying:
Rocko: "It's annoying when your friends leave you out all of the time."
Gimpy: "People leave you out because you isolate people and get drunk and smash things."
Rocko: "I get drunk and smash things because I care."
Cal: "You know whats annoying guys? When a bug flies up your nose, and when you blow your nose there's a bug in your booger."

Mump: "You know what they say, sir, 'Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.'"
Gimpy: [over radio] "What movie is that from?"
Mump: "Uh...uh..."
Nerd: [whispers to Mump] "Just tell him it's Star Wars."
Mump: "Star Wars."
Gimpy: "Excellent."

Mump: "Take it easy sir don't go into a..."
Gimpy: "KAMIKAZE!!! KAMIKAZE!!!"
Jessie: "You idiot!"
Nitz: "You'll spread our forces out so thin that the only person who could POSSIBLY win would be..."
[They look at Cal, tangled in his sleeping bag with a bra over his head, a glazed look on his face, and drooling]
*Gimpy's men crying*
Cal: "I'm the winner. I'm the Risk champ. Hooray for everything!"

LOL!!! Okay, so I went a little quote crazy, so sue me!

Man, Undergrads is so awesome, lol...and tv tome is amazing also, haha...and did you know that all 4 of the guys are played by the same voice actor, Pete Williams (III)? That's amazing! You wanna know something else hilarious? Here are the full, real names of the click:

Nitz - Parker Walsh
Gimpy - Justin Taylan
Cal - Cal Evans
Rocko - Rocko Gambiani

I didn't know this until tonight! Haha! Gimpy's name is Justin?! LOL! Just goes perfectly with that whole Nitz thing...always saw myself as somewhere between Nitz and Gimpy, but leaning towards Nitz, lol...

And no, my nickname isn't Nits because of the show! At first, it was Nitsuj because of Justin backwards (due to a shrine in Diablo I which flips your name, thought it sounded cool), and then when I played Final Fantasy I, you're only allowed 4 letters in the name, so it got shortened to just Nits...and I also thought that was cool...and then a few years later, Undergrads was on, and I was like "Holy Crap! I'm Nits! He's Nitz! Holy crap, I'm like Nitz in the cartoon!" And Nits was then firmly planted as one of my nicknames, lol...mostly for online stuff, but now people are actually calling me Nits, which is awesome :-)

Oh man, I've wasted so much time with all this undergrads junk! It's 2a.m., and I still gotta do so much homework! lol! But whatever, I'm in such a better mood now because of my semi-nostalgic fascination with this cartoon...and man, was I ever glad to watch that episode :-) Perfect timing...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an Introverted Extrovert.

Singing fun, fun, fun!

Well, let me just say that today was quite alright...gots me 5 hours of sleep, and that's usually enough for me to carry on in the day...actually got a little bit of work done, too...

Well, I woke up at about 12:30 in the afternoon, but by the time I got to school it was already about 2ish. Got through a bit of math, socialized a bunch, etc etc...

Then, at about 4pm, Mohsin, Roger, Shar, Munhong, BobbyO. and myself decided to go to Richmond Public Market [a.k.a. RPM] for some fooding. But we couldn't decide who's cars to take, so we joked around that we could all fit in Mohsin's, lol...needless to say, we had a few laughs over that. However, the funniest thing ever was Roger trying to fit into his trunk! That was the funniest thing I've seen in a long while! He actually had room to go in, told me to close the trunk...so I did it slowly at first, and it just bounced back up as we hear Roger yelp, lol! What could be funnier?! I'll tell you what! After that, he told me to close the trunk harder, and it slammed down and Roger was actually fitting inside Mohsin's trunk! HAHAHA!!!

Well, after that hilarity, we finally went to RPM (took Mohsin's and Shar's cars, so Me, Shar, and Roger had to walk back to her car...in the rain...lol). At RPM, we all got our food, and I ended up getting some bubble tea. Sour Plum bubble tea to be exact. And let me tell you, it was completely not what I was expecting! I made the strangest grimace on the first sip, I'll tell ya what...lol. Not sweet at all, kinda strange tasting...however, it kinda grew on me and it ended up tasting fairly good...not that I'll ever buy that again, mind you...hehe...

But Roger was again the cause of much hilarity at RPM when he started playing the Whac-an-Alligator game. He gets so worked up, smashing away at dem 'gators! Haha! And after a couple of plays, Munhong and Rob decided to join in the action, and the three of them were all smashing away! And we all looked onward, laughing our heads off! New high score of 93! Next time we go, we gotta gets better!

So afterwards, Rob and Munhong went home, and the rest of us went back to school...Elaine came and met up with us, along with Ahmad...we all talked a bit, most people went to class...I actually was able to get a bit more math done, lol...

One thing to note is that Elaine, Roger, Mohsin, and I had a little conversation about Shar, and how she is "so not fat"...lets just say that the words "gorgeous, cute, beautiful, hot mama, etc etc" were used to describe her. So if you're reading this Shar, you should know that people think you're hot! :-)

And that was pretty much my day! Well, got home at 10ish, ate, showered, guitar'd it up until my sis went off the comp at 1, surfed/blogged a bit, and now it's almost 3am! Haha...

Also, I'm really getting into this whole guitar thing...so many songs printed, and I can play most of them...but at what cost?? Hehe, I think it's becoming my new video games...

And to close it all up...Switchfoot is coming to Vancouver on Dec. 6th!!! That's frickin' awesome! And you know what? My friend that grew up with the guitarist of Switchfoot might be able to snag us some free tickets!

But anyways, I've gotta stop, just spent the last ten minutes playing the guitar instead of posting this blog, lol...and you know what? Who cares if it's past 3am, I still wanna guitar it up for a bit :-)

[Man, I think I really am addicted to the guitar, lol...]

Until next time, I guess...[:O)


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: Yup yup, it's 4am...I think I should go sleep now :-) ]

Ah yes, the weekend...

Had a nice couple of days I guess...

Saturday night, after I dropped my mom off at work, I dropped by David's house for a bit, because I was in the neighborhood...Alan was there too...we played some NHL 2k5 on the PS2 for a bit, and I must say, hockey games are fun as heck! But the new ones aren't as cool as the old 16-bit generation ones in the 90's...now you're not able to take your goalie across the rink and shoot! lol...but still fun nonetheless :-)

Thought I'd come over to make sure I wouldn't get lost today [sunday] for the actual party, lol...oh, and also apparently to practice the game so I wouldn't look like an idiot, haha...

And then I went home, had a shower, went on the comp to get some chords of songs, played some songs for a bit...then stupidly, at about 3a.m., I decided to start looking at my options for next year; see if I'm actually able to stay in Kwantlen another year without messing up my UBC degree scheduling...let's just say I had a tequila sunrise experience, minus the tequila...

Turns out that a lot of the 2nd year commerce courses aren't available in Kwantlen, so my dream of completing my Kwantlen diploma alongside my UBC degree was significantly crushed...realized that the only way I'd be able to get the diploma with the degree would be to take another year of schooling, but that'd mean I'd have 7 total years of schooling! That's so frickin much! However, it might turn out that I'll have to take another year anyways, if I don't get the courses I need next semester...stupid frickin only-one-class-offered courses, and stupid late registration date...

But now I'm torn: if I get my courses, then I'll be able to go to UBC next year and finish my degree on time; if I don't get my courses, I'm going to have to take another year at Kwantlen and finish my degree a year later. But which one do I really want??? On the one hand, I really want to get to UBC, and really I see it as the logical choice...but on the other hand, I'm having the time of my life at Kwantlen! I have so many great friends there, and I know a bunch are coming back next year, not to mention getting another diploma...and that extra year isn't so bad, is it? My head is telling me it's better to just go to UBC and get it over with, but my heart's telling me to stay at Kwantlen...

But whatever, I still have tons of time to figure that stuff out...I should worry about more important short term goals, like doing my frickin homework! haha...

Anyways, after a few hours of doing that, I decided to figure out the best schedule for my courses (again by using excel) , and jeez, is my schedule ever gonna be crap next semester, lol...best case scenario, I'll have fridays off and classes will be evenly spaced out, but I highly doubt that'll happen...worst case scenario, I'll have a bunch of 8am and 7-10 classes...simply horrible! Well, my absolute worst case scenario is still not getting the courses that I need, but I'll worry about that if and when it happens.

By this time, it was already close to 7:30am, about time I should get to sleep, haha...ended up sleeping in until about 2:30ish, not counting the numerous interruptions by my family, haha...

Well, woke up just in time to watch the Grey Cup, and that was a little disappointing...after the first quarter, the lions weren't looking so hot...ended up losing 27-19, so that kinda dampened my mood a bit, but hey it's just football...lol.

After the game, I played a bit on the guitar (man, I love those 90's songs!), then at about 7:30pm I drove to the gathering at David's place. As it turns out, his team actually won their first playoff game, so the party started later than it would've, lol...funny, because they were the worst team in their division, never even had a win, and yet the other team sucked that much worse (ended 5-1)!

So I met a bunch of his friends, and we had a good time playing video games and eating junk food and what not...I stayed until midnight, but most of the group left earlier to catch the bus to UBC...it's funny, because most people had 8am classes, yet everyone who was invited came...it's nice to know where everyone's priorities lie, eh? Hehe...

And so I drove back home, got on the comp, surfed the net a bit, guitar'd it up, blog'd it up, and now it's 3:30 in the morning, and I'm still fairly awake, haha...maybe because I've only been awake for about 12 hours...but oh well :-)

Man, that's weird...right after I wrote that, I suddenly became tired...strange how that always happens, eh? Maybe it's a sign that I should actually get some sleep, lol...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[Edit: Wow, I use way too many lol's and haha's...lol, haha!]
[Edit #2: It's 7:20a.m., and I haven't slept yet. I think I might be slightly addicted to playing the guitar...found all these tabs, just had to play...hehe]

Okay now...heh

Well, I had a nice rest, went to church this morning, I'm feelin' better...That's about all, haha...

Also, I just wanna say that I love kids. I seem to be so good with them...maybe because I'm tend to be childlike when I'm happy? lol...but yeah, if I ever marry a rich woman, I would love to be a stay-at-home dad...hehe

And one last thing I'm wondering about...I feel better now, but how did I really get this way? Is it because I have solved and accepted what was troubling me, or did my anger just disperse? ...or did I repress it into the innermost beings of my humanity? Because I'm worried that it's the latter...reminds of me of what I realized in highschool: of all the people I knew, I was probably the one most likely to go on a shotgun rampage in my school...along with Kris and Robert, lol...

But that's okay, the point is that I'm feelin much better :-)

Heh...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

What the hell is wrong with me??

[Edit: This is a really long and boring post, so I advise you not to read on...]

I’ve had such a bad day today...I had to frickin walk home from school because my jackass father hung up on me, couldn't wait for me to explain...It took me a freakin hour to walk home! That pissed me off! And to make things worse, I woke up late and had to skip breakfast, so I had to walk back home on an empty freakin stomach!

And then I was so lethargic for the rest of the night, didn’t even wanna go out...and this time everyone frickin came for once! What the frickin hell! Why didn't I wanna go?! Did I not go because I was tired? Or is David really right in saying that I’m depressed? I just don’t know anymore! But what the hell would I be depressed about? My life is frickin fine! Good grades, good friends, what the hell do I have to complain about?!? And knowing this just makes me even more pissed off!

Okay, nevermind, I know what's really got me in such a bad mood today, but it's not proper to talk about it on my blog...jeez, proper, I'm such a loser...

I shouldn't be in such a bad mood, there's no need for it...I should be used to this by now, but I'm not...

I should stop now before I go off on a tangent...

Jeez, nobody's gonna know what the hell I'm talking about...and it's probably not what anyone thinks either...well, I know one person who knows, but that's how I drove her away...

Dammit, I'm going off on a tangent...I don't care anymore...Ima gonna write a freakin essay...

And what's the freakin point of all this anyways? Aw, crap...monkey plug in, indeed...I hope there wasn't some twisted psychological reason behind this post...everyone will get the wrong idea why...but screw them, who cares what they think...no wait, I take that back...friends are great, but no one knows the real me...

Frickin hell...now I don't think I want people to read this...so why am I writing anything at all now? Yes, this is for me...but then everyone will see this, right? But nobody really reads my blogs anyways, it's always way way too long for most people to digest...or at least that's the feeling I get right now...then again, I'm having a lot of bad feelings right now...my thoughts are all blurring together...

Stupid everything...I can't write what I wanna write...frickin downside of blogs, can't put anything too personal online...and no matter how much I try to manipulate the words, it's always way too much information...

I swear, this is the reason why I never come home early anymore...I always seem to get depressed at home...thought it'd change in the new house, but I threw that out the second story window...and I thought it was getting better too, but he always seems to fuck everything up...

You know what? Screw it...I'm gonna leave that in...

This stupid post isn't even half as long as my others...but a novel has already passed through my head...what a bunch of junk...[Edit: Okay, so it gets longer...]

I should've gone with my sisters tonight, hang out with my friends...at least they've seen my moody side before...

Man, I feel like such an idiot...whenever I get moody, I always feel like I never have any friends, and I always seem to validate it by the fact that I never seem to get invited to anything on the weekends...but not this time, I actually have plans for sunday...so that idea's out the second story window as well...

Speaking of validation...I touched on this before, but I know this seems eerily familiar to all yous guys...and I hope I'm not doing this because I need some self validation or whatever...not to say that...dammit, I'm starting to get my foot in my mouth...

I swear, the worst feeling in the world is exclusion, right next to rejection and hopelessness...and whenever I feel a little bad, I always seem to find a way to lean towards these uber-bad feelings...maybe that's why I didn't wanna go tonight, because just the littlest thing would make me feel excluded...

Man, there seemed to be lots of little things that also helped to tick me off so much tonight...and for all of you who know, I know I shouldn't think that way, but yet I still continue down my reckless path of emotional abandon...

And another thing. Why is it that I don't act this way when I'm around my friends? Are my defences really that high? Do I mask my emotions from everyone? I've had this conversation a while back, and the answer is no. The reason why I seem so happy around everyone is just that; I am genuinely happy when I'm with friends! Even when they make fun, who cares! because I know they're just joking around, and it's all in good spirit, eh? Well, until I start to feel separated from everyone, then I get really touchy...or worse, really quiet...

But is that the real me, the happy guy? The nice guy who always has something good to say? Well, yes and no...it's definately a part of me, the better part of me, but then there's the part of me that I don't like, the part that wants to kick people in the throat, throw tables across the room, jackie chan it up a wall to run away...or worse, the part of me who gets depressed and sits in the corner of the bleachers during Acquire the Fire, the part that actually wants to be alone...I hate being alone...

Man, this sucks...I feel like I've repeated everything I've said a few times over...I hate not having structure in my blog, I never seem to get my point across when I stop caring about structure...

And now I've rambled on about nothing, a random jumble of narcissistic rhetoric to help me get over my bad mood...what a bunch of crap...then again, on the plus side, I'm pretty sure not many people made it this far through my blog, heh...

Whatever, I'm gonna sleep on it...I know I'm gonna be in a better mood tomorrow...or at least I should be...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Wow, it's 2am!

Man, it's late...wanna go to sleep, but I'd rather blog!

First of all, according to The Political Compass,
Economic Left/Right = -4.12
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian = -1.12

And this means that I'm left and slightly below center...which kinda confuses me, because I thought I'd be more smack dab in the middle...I don't know, I blame it on my super-left wing sociology teacher...

Today was my sociology midterm...for the essay question, I wrote a whole bunch of left-wing nonsense, hoping that she'll give a few sympathy marks or something for having the same views as her, lol...

Anyways, things happened the last few days, but meh...swimming, eating with friends, eating with uncle...that's about it I guess. Oh, and finally traded pokemon :-)

Man, I'm really getting back into the mid-90's "softer" rock, as Reuben suggested it be called...you know, that slower kinda emo-ish alternative-esque style? Kinda hard to describe, but includes songs like "Evan and Jaron - Crazy for this Girl", "Sister Hazel - All For You", "Tonic - Mean to Me", and other such songs...

Oh, and it also includes my current favourite song:

Vertical Horizon

"Everything You Want"

Somewhere there's speakingIt's already coming in

Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind...

You never could get it

Unless you were fed it

Now you're here and you don't know why...

But under skinned knees and the skid marks

Past the places where you used to learn...

You howl and listen

Listen and wait for the

Echoes of angels who won't return...

[Chorus]

He's everything you want

He's everything you need

He's everything inside of you

That you wish you could be...

He says all the right things

At exactly the right time

But he means nothing to you

And you don't know why...

You're waiting for someone

To put you together...

You're waiting for someone to push you away...

There's always another wound to discover...

There's always something more you wish he'd say...

[Chorus]

But you'll just sit tight

And watch it unwind

It's only what you're asking for...

And you'll be just fine

With all of your time

It's only what you're waiting for...

Out of the island

Into the highway

Past the places where you might have turned...

You never did notice

But you still hide away

The anger of angels who won't return...

[Chorus]

I am everything you want

I am everything you need

I am everything inside of you

That you wish you could be...

I say all the right things

At exactly the right time

But I mean nothing to you and

I don't know why...

And I don't know why...

Why...

I don't know...

That song's just awesome! You know what else is awesome? The name Vertical Horizon...really, just think about it...it's cool! You know another cool band name? The Tragically Hip...it's just so deep...

Anyways, I think I'm really liking these songs because they all have acoustic guitar sounds to them, which means that I'm able to play the simple chords and sound really cool :-) Thanks again you guys for getting me into that whole guitar thing! Hehe...

But it's 2:30am, and I gots school tomorrow! So off I go! Hope I didn't miss anything important...lol

Until next time, I guess...

--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Quicky

Okay, this is gonna be a quick post, because I still gots to study for tomorrow's psych exam, and I barely even touched on the 3 chapters it's gonna be on! Haha...

But moving right along...

I have realized over the past few weeks that I am really self-centered. Not that I'm selfish self-centered, but more in the ways that I think that everything that anyone says or does is about me, either directly or indirectly, and it's kinda been bugging me...

For example, when I got the giants tickets from my friend, I couldn't help but wonder if it's because there's something more...which is rediculous, because I know how she feels, and I know how I feel, and we're just friends, and that's how we both want it to be...but nevertheless, I still wondered...

Maybe that's what's bugging me, all my wondering...I can't just assume that people are talking about or doing things because of me...

This reminds me of another example...I remember when I was walking on the beach in vancouver one night, I saw a girl check me out, and I was like "wow, a girl checked me out! that's awesome!" But did she really check me out? I just don't know...but because I think that everything's about me, I thought that she did, and I felt awesome!

Which leads me to another thing: what I imagine people saying about me is greately dependent upon my mood. So maybe that girl on the beach really did check me out...but was it fair to assume that she thought I looked good? Maybe she was just staring because I was so ugly, like staring at roadkill or something...But because I was in a good mood, I assumed that she thought I was hot! lol! Looking back, that just seems rediculous...

But anyways, the point of all this is that I always think that things are about me...and most of the time, they're not. I'm just hoping that this doesn't lead to any embarrassing situations...or even worse, misinterpretations...

Then again, maybe this is all just in my head...I should just relax more, lol

Man I'm tired...but I gotsta study...maybe I'll do my "sleep now and wake up at 5ish and study" routine...or maybe I should just stop procrastinating on my blog and actually get some freakin work done! Hahaha...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Sooo much...

Wow, I have so much to say...where do I begin...?

Hmmm...reverse chronological order it shall be...

Well, it's 11:13pm on sunday night, and I just finished watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind on my computer...that movie is absolutely the best movie ever in existance! Every single thing about that movie seemed perfect to me...everything. But the thing that gets me the most is that I related so well to the main character, Joel: ...He says nice! I say nice! The girl got annoyed because he said nice too much! I had the exact same conversation with my ex! That's frickin unbelieveable! But now that I think about it, that's probably why I like that movie so much...so many similarities with my own experiences. I pretty much had that conversation when they were under the covers with the sun beaming down, too...I swear, that movie is amazing. That movie is like what happened to me. Well, except I usually don't remember the good times myself, and I was clingier towards the end...but I guess I was as much as a jackass as Joel...

But nevermind, I can talk about this movie some other time, I have more things I gotta write about...

The next of which being that I went to the Giants game tonight! My friend Krystle couldn't make it, so she gave her tickets to me. Mind you, this was at 4:15ish, and the game started at 5! So there was a rush to go to vancouver and pick up the tickets at her house, then to the pacific colluseum, but we did get there on time! Hmmm, we being my sister and I, because I took my little sister to go watch it...nm...anyways, my parents dropped us off (because parking's a hassle) and we went and watched the game. The game was awesome! First period was tight, which included a fight (yeah!), ended 1-1, then in the second the Giants really turned it on, got a couple of nice goals, ended 3-1 going into the third...but in the third, they just lost it! A goal by the Kootenay Ice within the first minute, then the Giants just played sloppy the rest of the third, and the game ended 4-3 Ice...that sucks! But hey, that's the breaks, I guess. Oh, and the seats we had were pretty nice, a few rows back from the players, but it did make it a little difficult to see the game...but hearing the coach was pretty cool! "Gilbert's line!" "What the hell was that, Lamb! Wake up!" lol, it was pretty cool...but then there was the whole fiasco of me thinking I'd lost my cellphone, and having to wait 40mins for my dad to pick us up...but it's all good, and I ended up back home at around 8:30ish.

And prior to all this chaos, I watched the Lions game! GO LIONS!!! That game was frickin awesome! Two awesome field goals by O'Mahoney! OVERTIME!!! And they're going to the grey cup against the Argos! That's just perfect! Toronto vs. Vancouver! Damon Allen vs. his old team! That's just cool! We gotta watch it next week you guys!

Haha...anyways, prior to that, I was at the youth retreat at hope! Man, this is gonna be a long posting! lol

Well, first thing off, Crystal couldn't make it, which sucked...but I thought I saw her there, and was starting to get worked up, but I got a closer look, and it wasn't her...aww...But aside from that, I guess it was a pretty good weekend. The problem was, it was already half over when I got there friday night (since it started on Thursday), and people already got to know each other in their groups and stuff...so I was really shy and didn't say much because I didn't know anybody in my group...near the end, I started to feel more comfortable, but then it was already sunday and time to go!

Also, I could only make it to one "Break-Out" session, which were pretty much stations that gave lessons on different topics...well, they were more exciting than I'm probably making them out to be, lol...and the one I went to was "Dating in the Spirit", which is pretty much about how god should be in your lives, part of the relationship and stuff like that...made some really interesting points, I've gotta say...made me think and stuff...Oh, and one more thing, Krystle was really funny about this, because she was saying how all the guys she liked before were pretty much out of the question now; "Hmm, that speaker had some good points...but now there's nobody to like! Because he's out, and definately not him...and all the Adventist guys are scary!" Hahaha!

Oh, the food there was amazing...and all vegetarian! But I definately ate way too much...for example, for saturday lunch, I had roasted potatoes and these awesome veggie patties with mushroom gravy, and a bunch of other side dishes (I think salad with the fake bacon stuff), so I piled on my plate and ate everything...but then mashed potatoes came out! Frickin mashed potatoes! I'd gotta had some of that! So I piled them on my plate, and gots some more veggie patties and took some gravy...and mmmm, it was good! But my stomach felt like it would explode! Haha, had to take a nap afterwards to digest...I know, sleeping after stuffing your face is supposed to be bad, but whatever...it was a nice nap! lol

And another thing I realised...I look disgusting! I mean I saw some of the pictures they took of me in the slide show, and man I looked horrible! I don't know if they just got me on my bad side (I have a bad side?), or if I just didn't care so much about my looks, or if I do really look that horrible, or whatever, but sheesh! I gotta take better care of myself! Do you guys think I look horrible? Wait, nevermind, I don't think anyone would give a straight answer, lol...anyways enough of this subject while I'm still in a sorta good mood...

Onto the next thing I remember about the weekend...my frickin tiny bag! Krystle kept telling me to keep packing to a minimum, because the car going there isn't going to be very big & won't fit very many things in the trunk, etc etc...so I take everything outta my schoolbag, stuff it full of clothes etc (and a bunch of things I didn't need to pack, like a towel, and frickin snow pants!), making it look like my bag is about to explode, and brought it with me. But lo and behold, Krystle brings all this junk that's 3 times bigger than my stuff! Haha! Kinda was annoyed, but then I just laughed about it...lol...but the funniest thing, though, was that Elana took this tiny frickin bag with her! With like nothing in it! Haha...

But anyways, enough talk about frivolous things from the retreat...to sum up how I felt about the whole thing, I wish I was there for the whole thing, because it would've really been quite a lot better for me...but as it was, I thought it was okay...the previous years' ones were really amazing, and I had to compare this year's to lasts'. This weekend's testimonials weren't as emotional as earlier, so that was kinda disappointing, but then again, maybe that just means that, collectively, everyone had less problems to deal with, which is pretty cool I guess...

Yeah, I thought last years retreat was really amazing...everything was relevant, the main speaker had some really good points that I took to heart, it snowed overnight and the mountains turned from green to white (it was beautiful...and the reason why I brought snowpants this year!)...and to cap it off, I shared a moment with a really nice girl...

But I don't know, I might not be going next year...it's really supposed to be a youth event, 14+, and it's getting quite expensive actually...but I don't know, it's a year away and a lot can change in a year...

And here I am, 12:13am, an hour later than I started...I think this should be enough for one day, don't you? lol

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[oh man, that reminds me! I'm like the freakin rhesus monkey in the video I saw in psych! I was born introverted! When I'm away from familiar things, I revert back to my shy self! Then I get to know the sitation, and become comfortable, and become more extroverted, lol! I realized this when I was super shy at the retreat, haha...and also, this is how I now consider myself: a re-introverted extroverted introvert, who, when comfortable in his surroundings, become re-extroverted...but that's just complicated, so introverted extrovert will do just nicely :-P]

{So until next time, I guess...lol}

Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, I'm free at last!

I can't believe I did my debate today! I was freaking out! But it's ova!!!! SCHAWING!!!

Kinda wish I had another day though, I know I could've been better...but whateva!!! It's ova!!! SCHAWING!!!

Kinda tired, got less than 4 hrs of sleep...I hope I did well enough though...

Going away this weekend! Gotta pack when I get home, then meeting up with my group at church, then it's Hope-ward bound! I don't know, maybe she'll be there, but I doubt it...I hope I'm still going to have a good time there with my friends...

Haha, I might as well tell you all something funny...Do you guys remember the girl who I had a crush on years ago, the one that motivated me to lose weight, and is now one of my best friends? Well, her name is Krystle. And guess what's that girl from Kelowna's name is? Crystal...lol

Eerily similiar to another situation of a friend of mine...you know who you are man...

Hmmm, that's strange...I guess I don't really use names very often in my blog...it's always "then she" or "her" or something like that, lol...then again, nobody's ever really asked for specifics :-)

Anyways, just gots one more thing to say...what's with all the drama? Completely missed everything...hope everything's alright with everything, and that it'll be alright...with everything...?

It's times like these that make me glad I never get called to go hang out...bah, that's a bunch of crap, it still ticks me off...man, don't think this is the time to talk about it...

Anyways, I'm off to the weekend! Ima gonna gets going!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert...

Well then...

Okay, so I've got another question...well, I think some background is in order before I say my question, so here's the deal:

Last year I went to Hope for a Youth Retreat thing with my church. It turns out that I met a girl, and yes in that way...one problem though, she lives in kelowna! We both kinda knew that it wouldn't really work out, so nothing really serious happened, but we did keep in touch and all that. And now, I'm going to Hope again this weekend, and she might be there, which would be awesome...I really would like to see her again :-)

But here's my question: Is it alright to like someone else? Because I know that she'll eventually move to the lower mainland, and I'm fairly sure that if we lived closer to each other we'd already be dating...so I guess my question really is should I wait a while and date her, or should I consider dating other people?

And no, not because of those rumours that certain people are bugging me about...I was thinking more along the lines that she might want to date other people...However, it did get me thinking, what if I do end up liking someone else? Should I wait or not? Because she does seem to be an exception to my general dating philosophy, since I haven't really gotten a chance to know her very well...

Anyways, I don't know if it really will be such a big deal, since she might not even make it to the retreat this weekend...but oh well, just thought I'd write all this down, try to sort out my thoughts and all that...

Oh man, I wonder if she reads my blog...that's the tricky thing about blogging, you always have to be careful on how much you actually say, since theoretically everything you say can get scrutinized...especially if you go all philosophical all the time like me, lol...

Man, I really gotta clean out my e-mail...they just keep piling up, and I'm so lazy to go through all of them...right now, I have 33 unread messages, and 60+ total in my inbox...some dating back to the beginning of the summer!

Anyways, I think I might be starting to ramble a bit...best to stop now before my blog becomes another essay!

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Hmmm...

Okay, so I've got a question...Is it okay to like someone who doesn't like you back? I say this because throughout my life, I've seen it happen many times...most of the time it's my friends, but yes I've done this before as well...and although most of the time it's harmless superstar crushes, sometimes it's with actual people...and that's when the drama starts up...

Personally, I don't see the point in liking someone who won't reciprocate your feelings, because usually it's just a waste of time, and it blinds you from others who could actually like you...this is all based on previous experiences, mind you...but then again, having that fantasy is nice while it lasts, eh?

So what's the point of all this, you might ask? Simply put, it seems like all my different groups of friends are going through this kind of thing in one form or another...so I thought I might as well write my semi-rhetorical question down to archive this amusing moment of my life...

...SCHAWING!!!

Anyways, this kinda reminds me of a song I like, probably my most favourite song btw, because it's all about a guy who misinterprets a girls feelings towards him...and now he's sad...hehe

"Dumb Like That"

by Vroom

I think I've seen every star in the sky tonight

Removed from the city lights, it's never seemed so bright...

I know I shouldn't believe a word you say,

I do anyway, cause I'm dumb like that.

Oh...

In all the words I've given to you,

When you smiled I thought that it meant something else.

You were just being yourself, being nice,

You're always rather polite...

To me...

You let me down again, when you ignored the things I said to you.

If I was scared of you then maybe I could leave...

And if I walked away right now,

There would be nothing left for me to lose but doubt.

I Never fell so far for anyone before,

Never again I swore,

With you hope was restored...

You make me feel like I've been torn apart

I don't like that at all. I've lost control...

Oh...

In all the words I've given to you,

I poured my heart out into an empty coffee cup,

You drank it up,

& left me here to drown...

Alone...

You let me down again, when you ignored the things I said to you.

If I was scared of you, then maybe I could leave...

Cause if I walked away right now,

There would be nothing left for me to lose, but,

I can't lose you...I can't lose you...

I can't lose you!

I think I've seen every star that I care to see,

but I don't wanna leave.

It hurts when you're self deceived...

I know I shouldn't believe a word you say,

I do it anyway,

Cause I'm dumb like that...

Oh...

In all the words I've given to you

When you smiled I thought that it meant something else.

You were just being yourself, being nice,

You're always rather polite...

To me...

You let me down again, when you ignored the things I said to you.

If I was scared of you then maybe I could leave

Cause if I walked away right now,

There would be nothing left for me to lose but doubt...

but doubt...but doubt!

There's nothing left, there's nothing left for me to lose but doubt...

There's nothing left, there's nothing left for me to lose but doubt...

There's nothing left, there's nothing left...

Best frickin song of all time, I swear...going through the years, it always had some sort of relevance...yeah, it's emo, so sue me...lol, I like emo...

And since when did the word emo become such a negative slang?? "Oh, don't be so emo!" "I'm feeling emo today, you guys..." What the hell! I mean I know emo's short for emotional, but still! To me, emo is a music genre, and yes it's just a bunch of guys crying to music, but whatever, I like it...so stop misusing emo! hehe...

All this aside, I do think "sensi" is a pretty funny word..."You're such a sensi!" haha! [Or is it sensy/sensee?? whatever...lol]

Oh, and just as a little sidenote, I'm getting kinda worried about the next couple of weeks...tons of papers due, a bunch of midterms, two oral presentations...and I've been doing diddly squat! I've gotta start soon before I crumble under all this potential pressure...

Then again, there's always tomorrow :-)

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Splashy splashy!

I finally went to watermania today! Worked out for about an hour, then went swimming for a couple more...and man, it was awesome! I now fully realize how much I regret sitting on my ass all summer...I could've been ripped! Haha...

Anyways, the hour of working out was pretty good, mostly cardio and that rowing machine...After that, I decided to do some laps in the pool...not the best idea after working out for an hour! I could barely do 4 laps!

But exactly how long is a lap? Once there and back? Or does that count as two laps? And what if that divider thing is up? Does that mean they're half laps then? Well, those 4 laps I could barely do were half laps, once there and once back...so, maybe only 2 I guess...

I guess that's better than the last time I tried swimming though, I couldn't even do a full-length lap without taking a break! Then again, that was quite a while ago...

And another thing...I CAN'T DO PROPER DIVES ANYMORE!!! That sucks! I always used to be such a great diver, but noooo! Not anymore! Maybe it's because I lost all that weight, or maybe because I'm just rusty, I don't know...but man! I gotta practice more!

Anyways, after some diving, I took a break in the steam room...ahhhh, steam room...then I did some more laps, then breaks, then more laps...I think I alternated every 15mins or so...but it was awesome!

And at about 5ish, right when I was about to leave, they opened up the slides! I haven't been on those slides in ages! Granted, they're not spectacular, but still! SLIDES!!! lol...The red one still freaks me out when I go too fast and I feel like I'm falling over, and the blue one is always cool because you get to go so fast...and after all that swimming and exercising, running up the spiral staircase to the slides 8 times in under 5 minutes is hella tiring...but well worth it!

And then I went home :-)

And at home, I had dinner...remembering that all I had that day was a cup of yogurt and some potato chips, I piled it on and ate like a pig! And I paid the consequences, lol...my stomach hurt so much! haha...forgot that the half an hour rule thing counts for after you swim as well...

But whatever, I finally went swimming today! Hooray for me! I'm awesome! lol...

And now I'm at school studying for my midterm tomorrow...but I'm falling asleep, haha...

Until next time, I guess...


--> As told throught the mind of an introverted extrovert.

For shizzle!

Gots to say, today was a pretty good day...

Church in the morning...up front again with dem congas...then went home and learned to play the guitar better (turns out I know a bunch of songs now! that's just awesome!) ...then went back to church for the Hawaiian Luau fundraiser thing, and that was pretty freakin awesome too...playing the congas while a bunch of girls did the hula (including my so-called "hot sister", btw...ug), and also singing two Beach Boys songs in the quartet was pretty frickin cool as well...and although I didn't enjoy the food so much, at least we won a bunch of cakes! haha...

Afterwards, went back home, guitar'd it up a bit more...then I watched Mean Girls w/ my sisters. I've gotta say, completely the opposite of what I was expecting...that movie was frickin hilarious! I forgot it was by the SNL people! That's awesome! You know what else is awesome? Getting punched in the face! lol!

Anyways, after the movie I then stayed up an extra 4 hours watching tv...first of all, I watched the ending of the futurama episode with the 7-leaf clover...that was sweetness! It was so touching, Fry's brother naming his son after Fry...awwww, lol! Moving on, I then watched the next show on teletoon, which turned out to be Delta State...and holy crap, that show's amazing! It's so frickin' trippy! Plus it's got that whole rotoscope animation thing, except a lot cooler than those crappy 70's junky rotoscoping...ha! I then decided to focus my attention towards a 2-hour documentary on comics, which was actually quite enlightening...well, as far as comicdom goes, I guess. I then started channel surfing, switching my interests from "the science of superhuman strength" to classic nhl to History Bites and other such shows. And as an aside, History Bites is a crazy awesome show! But it's always on at like 3am...lol! And right when I was about to go to bed, I switch it to ytv and Teen Titans was on! I couldn't pass up that opportunity! Pretty cool, master of games or something like that...put them in a tournament fighting each other, and the master ends up with the losers' powers! Das amazing...hehe! Anyways, I cought myself before watching the new x-men cartoon, and instead I went on the comp and blogsurfed a bit...and as you can see, I decided that I might as well update my blog...

And that was pretty much my day!

...SCHAWING!!!

Plus the obligatory hand gestures...lol

Man, it's so late...and I was thinking I'd get to sleep early tonight! Haha...hopefully I'll still have the motivation to head off to watermania in the morning...ha, right...

Until next time, I guess...



--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Man, I'm so mixed up...

I'm was in such a bad mood today...I feel like I frickin failed my freakin midterm! Crap dammit...there goes my awesome gpa...

But I shouldn't complain, I made my choice...

Kinda strange how my mood keeps changing and junk like that...

SCHAWING!!! KA---PUNG!!!

And other such noises...lol

Until next time, I guess...



--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Awesomeness...ness

First and foremost, to Jake and Angela, congradumafrickinlations! That's just awesome!

Secondly, hanging out with friends is awesome! Great way to keep sane, lol...

And thirdly, I HAVE A FRICKIN MIDTERM TOMORROW AND I'VE BARELY STUDIED!!! But you know what? It's all good, 'cause I've made my decision...friends are way more important than studying...I mean what's the worst that could happen? I'd fail and have to retake the course, delaying my inevitable graduation for another year...so what??? More time to enjoy my youth! Haha, I just hope I haven't gotten overconfident because of my good marks...

Well, I think that's everything I really wanna say...well, except for one thing...

Frickin' guitar! Awesomenessness! Borrowed from my auntie, awesomenessness! Plink plink nice! Nice plink plink! Bungabungabungabunga!

Until next time, I guess, hahaha...




--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

The Turnaround

Hey...won't blog for very long, gots an early class...no, really...

Just want to say that today was frickin' crazy awesome! Wish I remember all the hilariousness that happened today, but I always seem to forget the details...

Monkey! Lol...that was hilarious...Angela's amazing at prank calls...

Plus the whole Jake and Angela thing started to be out in the open, which was just awesome...

"Way to score points man..." "Shut up, you bastard!" hahaha! It's not very often that Roger has awesome one-liners, but when he does...lol!

Oh, and as a side note, it turns out that Sheena is in the same class as my sister! Not only that, but also in the same frickin' group! It really is a small world after all...hahaha!

And speaking of sickening cheeriness, my mood does seem drastically different from my last blog, eh? And it just so happens that it was sunny for most of today too, lol...coincidence? Maybe...hehe...

It's days like this that make me wanna stay at kwantlen for another year...

Until next time, I guess [:0)




--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Ticked off, but oh well...

Today was not a good day...

First of all, I wasted half of the day by sleeping in way too long...consequences of staying up 'til 6 the night before, I guess...Then there was the whole student loan argument I had with my mom, along with the fact that I had to drive her to Home Depot and Save-On for a good portion of the day...this, along with having to pick up my sister from school, negated my previous plans of going to watermania and working out...now, realizing that most of my day has pretty much been wasted, I thought I might as well get to school and see if I could study a bit (or at least socialize and feel a little better).

Well, once I got to school, I wasn't able to study at all, but I did end up going with everyone to the mall...I had the pleasure of watching everyone else eat while I just sat around with the knowledge that I'd eat in a few hours anyways...at least I had fun talking to everyone, I guess...After the fooding, we all went to Future Shop...such a waste of my time...just wandered around for a few hours while people got their swag...and as a bonus, I got to hear an earful of infighting among the crew...what a downer...and that's not even the worst part!

I lost my frickin umbrella at Future Shop!!! Pissed me off, because I knew I'd lose it by the end of the day...I was just walking back with everyone when I realized that I wasn't holding it...it was already close to 7, so I decided to just say goodbye to everyone, head back, and try to look for it...oh yes, and I was also to look for Shar's toque that she had lost as well...so what ended up happening, you ask? I COULDN'T FIND MY FRICKIN UMBRELLA, BUT I FOUND SHAR'S FRICKIN TOQUE!!! Do you have any idea how annoying that is?! But the worst thing about all this is that I found the toque in less than a minute, just lying on the floor, while I spent nearly half an hour looking for my umbrella and ended up with squat! SQUAT!!!

And of course, after I had lost my umbrella, the rain turned into a frickin monsoon! That just pissed me off even more! Not only that, I had the pleasure of driving into east vancouver in the pouring rain...the darkness just depressed me even more...not to mention the fact that absolutely no good songs were being played on the radio! I had to find a way to amuse myself...har de har har...but this mostly meant singing / talking to myself, which made me even more miserable...

Anyways, once I got to Joey's place, my mood started to pick up...all the little kids were there, and they always seem to brighten up my mood. Once the guys and I were ready, we practiced our songs. We sounded pretty good, except I wasn't able to hold the notes long enough tonight, which ticked me off a little...

Also, they talked about the situation they had yesterday at the filipino church's gymnight at deer lake school. Apparently, a bunch of drunk guys decided that it'd be funny to start shooting bottle rockets at kids, so someone confronted them about it. Long story short, he pissed off the 20+ drunk guys and they all wanted to have a fight with the 20+ gymnight guys...had to call the cops and everything...

It's funny how much of a downer it is to hear that your church's music director almost got into a rumble on halloween...but hey, at least it was his birthday tonight, lol...Happy Birthday Joey!.....heh.

So after all this talk, we ate some good food, practiced a bit more, played a bit of video games, and generally had a good time I guess...however, after going outside in the monsoon-like rain to get to my car, my mood went down once again...at least this ride home was less eventful than last week's...

So when I got home, I was expecting that I'd be able to quickly finish up my homework, have a shower, then go to bed...WRONG! My sisters were occupying both the bathroom and the computer...wasted a few hours watching t.v. because of this, just to top off my horrible day. Of course, instead of doing homework, I start typing away on my blog...you know, just to diffuse some of my frustration...hopefully now I won't do something stupid tomorrow like throw chairs across the hall or kick somebody in the throat..........don't ask.

I swear, the horrible weather had something to do with my mood today...there's scientific proof that this could be true, but why the hell would I want to bore everyone, including myself, with the details...

Oh yes. Funny thing happened last night...Halloween! Completely forgot to write about that yesterday...probably because I felt so happy while making my last post. Well, to get right down to it, I really don't like Halloween; I never have, and I doubt that I ever will...don't really wanna get into it right now though, I've probably depressed everyone enough as it is...

Aw, crap...this post turned out to be way longer than I wanted...and it's already 2:30 in the morning...I'm just gonna stop right here...stupid always rambling when I'm half asleep...this sucks...

Until the next time, I guess...




--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.