Monday, July 25, 2005

The Best/Worst of Times...

The weekend was kinda interesting, to say the least...

Yes, camping was fun...yes, speakers were good etc...however, certain events led me to think that I was stuck in the periphery again, being unnecessary within the group...

Also, I was kinda in a bad mood at times, sometimes because of the feelings of unwantedness (which led to a near-insomniatic night), but also because of other events that happened earlier which really ticked me off...next time, I'm so driving my own freakin' car up...

Anways, another highlight for me was that I seem to be obsessing w/ my Hapkido, "practicing" for no apparent reason...I believe it was because I wanted to take some agression out from my bad moodiness...however, it made me realize that I really like this martial art, and I could really go far if I wanted to.

There were other good highlights too, such as the hikes and the lake...hmm, I might as well write my "what I did" paragraphs now...

Friday: Left work early (man, I think they hate me now), dad drove (really annoying), arrived at 10ish, raised the tent, went to the youth hill w/ the rest of the crew and hung out 'til midnight. Then, time for "sleeping", which meant staying up 'til 3ish talking in the tent, which was fun ('til the end, at least for me).

Saturday: Woke up around 9, ate breakfast, went to the youth hill again for the morning service, ate lunch w/ the dublankos, hiked up to the waterfalls (which is really more like a large rock bluff w/ flowing water running down it), ate dinner, went to the young adult tent (instead of youth hill) for the night meeting w/ kathleen and alan...man, young adult tent is waaaaay more my style, tons more intellectual instead of stupid teenage angsty atmosphere (and "justification" is not a freakin' large word!). After that, alan & I went to youth hill to find others, we didn't, so we caught the end of service at the main auditorium, which was nice, then we saw a "mini-concert" thing with a group called InFocus, a singing trio which was really nice, and reminded me back to the early/mid-90's, back before boy band / spice-girls-esque ruined singing groups. After this, shower etc, then another staying up late session in the tent...however, this time it really ticked me off that I got kicked out that people were wanting to sleep, yet continued to talk when I left (I was the only one who had to leave), so I kinda wandered around for about an hour and a half, walking around the campsite in the darkishness, but then I realized I was stupid for hurting myself esp. if I was having a long day the next day and especially if I'm working monday...so I went to bed.

Sunday: Fun fun fun! Woke up around 9:30, ate breakfast, then we went to hike up to Third Ledge, which was this awesome rock outcropping we had to hike up this super steep trail to get to, and man that was so fun. We went to the top, overlooking the entire campsite, which is entirely surrounded by beautiful mountains, greeeen trees, and a river across from the road/railroad. Awesome view, if not me being a little freaked out w/ the possibility of falling to my doom...also of note, Brittney Catherine and DJ/Dorothy came too (Lavesa's cousins, lavesa being esthers sister, esther being joey's wife...), and they were fun to hang around with. [Are those checkerboard items DJ wears because of Ska-scene?! She does look kinda familiar, hehe...] Oh, and helping everyone down from this really steep slippery rock thing was nice...Anyways, after that, we ate, then we went to the Lake of the Woods, which is this awesome lake right near the highway, where we swam etc, plus me elana alan daniel and uriel swam across the lake to the rocks, and even though I did better than in previous years, I was still so lagging (I really needs to build up my stamina!). Then we had watermelon there, went back, most packed up and left, leaving me shaylene and kim behind, which we then stayed w/ the leftover dublankos (Ron and Selene) and had some hot dogs (and ginger beer! mmmmm!), then we packed up my tent and waited for my parents to pick us up, which they did around 8, then on the ride back I pretty much slept for most of it, which was nice...had a weird dream that my cel phone kept ringing but whenever I answered nobody was there, and that I was dreaming that I was really sleepy...anyways, point was, today was a gooooood day!

Okay, so I know I'm missing a whole bunch of stuff in here, but I've rambled on long enough...esp. since the middle of my sat. ramble, heheh...

So, looking back, there were many ups and downs, but all in all it was quite a nice trip, and kudos to Krystle (and Nicole!) for organizing everything!

Until next time, I guess...

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Crap, Talk About Last Minute...

Well then, I'm tired as hell, and I seem to not be alleviating myself of this...

I'm camping tomorrow, but I don't know how I'm getting to Hope, don't know what I'll be doing there (besides actual camp meeting stuff), and I don't know what exactly I'll be eating...

I still have to pack, it's nearly midnight, and I've got work tomorrow to boot...crap, I hope I don't have to leave early...

Hopefully I'm feeling better tomorrow, 'cause right now I feel kinda low...heh, I just made a short joke in my head, and now I feel even more blue...man, I don't want this to become another tacoma...

I harsh feel like I'm in the periphery once again, being that I won't be driving up w/ everyone else...the ride up is half the fun, and them not waiting to pick me up / not having room is really bumming me out...plus, I have a feeling that when I get there I'll feel once again on the outside looking in, making me have another lonesome all-nighter wandering the camp at 3 in the morning...

This week went by way too fast...and nobody even went to Hapkido yesterday, which really bummed me out 'cause I was looking forward to hanging out w/ the guys too...however, monday tuesday were quite awesome...

Oh hey, Kris is working at Oceans tomorrow...man, that's gonna be freakin' sweet...

And yet I'm still depressed about the camp prep stuff...or, rather, the distinct lack of prep by me...man, I hate not having a plan...man, I hate being too lazy to make a plan...

I really hate not having enough sleep too...that's, I'm assuming, a major contributor to my depressive mood at the moment...

Oh, and I have no tent to sleep in. Woooo...

Well, I seem to be in a terribly irritable mood, 'cause my mom walked into the comp room to get to our second fridge, and she forgot to close the door on her way out, so I yelled, and my sister retorted, so I screamed back, got pissed off, and punched the computer desk a few times...man, I miss my old strike-averse self...

So, here's the plan for tomorrow:
1) Work
2) Come home, shower, etc
3) Go to Camp Hope somehow

It seems so simple, yet I know it's super complicated...

Ohhh, right right right, I must remember, K112, K112, K112, that's the camp site I'm going to, K112, K112...

If memory serves me correctly, this line is from Iron Chef...

Wow, talk about being random...I really AM out of it...

Man, I really gotta pack...

This sucks, stupid crush...I swear, it's not even a Crush, it's more like a Greater Potential, really...

I like playing guitar...I like Fastball - Out of My Head. That's the song I was trying to remember during pool, which I find WAAAYYY better than The Way, Fastball's so-called "one hit wonder"...actually, it could've been in the 2-hit wonder section of the show, so I don't know...

Stupid having less than 12 hrs sleep in the past 4 days, even if I wanted to sulk about and be imsomniatic tomorrow, I won't be able to 'cause I'd fall into a heap wherever I was walking around...

To tell you guys the truth, I kinda miss being uber depressed...letting everything out is kinda relieving...I like just being able to drop absolutely anything and go off into my own little headspace, wandering away from everyone...

Weird, that reminds me...if anyone's ever seen "A Mighty Wind", that folk-music movie w/ Eugene Levy, my previous wandering depression mode is remarkably similar to Levy's character...

Just remembered I really don't have a ride anymore, I should go ask again now...[5 mins later]...problems solved (somewhat): after some wrangling w/ my mom "there's gonna be jumper cables in a camp with thousands of people!", I am now able to take the car / my dad drive me and my sister (ShayShay) to camp hope...I also realized that tents are unimportant when there are cars to sleep in. Wooo, backseat early 90's civic...uncomfortable, my ass...

Okay, so now alls that worries me is that I'll be missing about 4-6 hrs of time w/ the guys up there...that really pisses the hell outta me...you know, all this talk about me feeling so completely left out, and yet she just assumes that I'll be fine with not being able to go up there...plus, with the whole "it doesn't matter if you're there friday night, we're just setting up anyways" really put a dagger into my spine...sure making it sound like I'm in the periphery...

I'm so in the periphery...with any group of friends I'm in...

Perhaps this is a reason why I'm so clingy in a relationship, 'cause of the whole actually being so close to someone is such a rare occurrence...

Crap, I still smell like fish...I'm gonna freakin' smell like fish at camp...so, stoic wandering it is then...

Wow, now that was random...wow, I can't believe how incredibly random this entire post ended up to be...

I can't believe it's not hydrogenated...

I can't believe I just wrote that...

Now I have a headache...and it's quarter past midnight, and I still haven't packed...my head hurts worse now...

I need sleep...

Gnite (moon!)

Wait, this ain't no msn convo...

Until next time, I guess...

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Again w/ the Randomness?

First off, a question: is it wrong for 17 yr girl to date 21 yr guy? Also, is there a difference between a 13/17 couple and a 17/21 couple?? 'Cause I think that 17/21 is alright, and it's a BIG difference than 13/17. (From convo from the other night...)

Secondly, should I go to UBC Commerce Frosh?? A video in picture page...I mean, looks good w/ the networking + meeting friends bit, but then there's the whole money issue, plus the whole being shy in a new situation kinda thing...and, do I really wanna spend my labour-day weekend w/ them instead of friends?? (...oh, and MAN! The guy in the video who climbed up the diving board hella looks like me! At least, a gr. 9ish version of me!)

Thirdly, I'm in a tough situation...I mean, w/ work and all, I have limited time...sooo, is it Harry Potter, Catch-22, or Smallville DVD's?! Or should I actually do something semi-productive like learn new songs on the 6-string...?

Fourthly, Shar + Angela + Angeli (sp?) = Fun!

Wait, that came out wrong...crap, now THAT came out wrong too...

Anyways, pool w/ Shar and Angela was awesome tonight, and I gots ta see the infamous Angeli, from Toronto schooling or something? Mmm, bubble tea from that place w/ the bridge over the swamp...Oh, and one more thing, yes I thought Angeli was cute (esp. how she sat w/ her legs kinda up on the seat, uber cute!), plus it was easy to talk to her (big plus), but the whole just-had-a-bad-breakup + going-to-florida was kind of a turnoff...not that I really had a chance anyways, but just thought I'd like to show a small piece of my "is she a potential" mentality I always seem to fall into...

Speaking of my "is she a potential" mentality, I saw Priscilla again today at White Spot (she was working), and it reminded me of everything good and bad about the potentiality of me and her...I mean, she's obviously beautiful, she has a great personality, we have similar tastes in tv music etc (or so it seems), and I seem to get along really well with her, so why not ask her out or something? Well, I'll tell you why...first off, she seems like the Ms. Popular type (but not the mean ms. pop.), meaning she probably has tons of guys clamoring to go out w/ her, and I cannot fathom her choosing me over the hunky/lovable types out there...secondly, she seems to be the party/clubbing/etc type, even if it is in small doses (i.e., still a turnoff)...thirdly, she seems like the type to deserve someone "perfect", meaning someone w/ the whole package, something in which I am not...[p.s., whole package = hunky+smart+funny+kind+etc, of which I fall short on what I found as most important]

In short, Priscilla seems to be the classic "too perfect" type, making me way too intimidated to follow up on anything that could be...then again, the whole touching the side of my arm w/ the back of her hand in a buddy-buddy type manner kinda got me thinking again that there is still the potential if I decide to go any further...

Crap, which leads me too my next half-realization...who out there considers this "brush on the arm" thing as potential to be something more? Because in my usual overanalytical mindset, this to me can fall into the category of flirting, you know, if I decided to finish the loop w/ the "shrug coyly w/ hands in the pocket, smirking cutely, while gazing into her eyes" bit on my end...anyways, point is, I always seem to take little non-important things as relational revelations. I think Vroom summed it up best in their song Dumb Like That: "When she smiled I thought that it meant something else...you were just being yourself, being nice..."

Crap, oh man, just found another reasoning w/ my so-called "crush"...she is also a self-proclaimed overanalyzer...(for those of you out there who know who I'm talking about, yes all ONE of you)...so far, this plus the convo, my reasonings include "nice, easy to talk to, [religious], smarts, wits, cuteness, smile, 'makes me feel hugged', my perceiving ourselves as a potentially good couple, we both are overanalyzers". Oh, and one more to the reasonings: amazingly similar personalities, which I thought was nigh-on impossible...

Well then, I've seemed to have wasted my time once again, thus making me have another 3ish hours of sleep before work...oh well, at least I got some good blogging outta my system. Even if I'm pretty sure next to nobody will read any of this, it feels good to throw out my patterns of thought with girls, a.k.a. my potentiality mentality...

Oh junk...junk junk junk...that sucks with the breaking-uppiness...oh man, it's 2:20am...but I truly wants to help 'im out w/ the staying online...

Crap, I think I really needs my sleep...says it's okay to go bed, but me still feel kinda bad...esp. w/ tonight...junk...junk junk junk...

Man, what a way to end a long-ass blog...

Until next time, I guess...

Monday, July 18, 2005

Rollin' Rollin' Rollin'...

Drove so freakin' much today...but first things first...

Surrey SUCKS!!! I hate the freakin' road system there! Plus, it's too freakin' HUGE! I got some bad directions, took river road instead of highway 10, and I got lost up around north surrey, when I'm supposed to freakin' be in white rock! And when I try to take the little side roads, I get sucked into a freakin highway, making me drive around in a friggin' circle!!! GAAAHH!!!

Anyways, enough surrey talk, driving was fun...heheh, especially the part where I almost drove the wrong way down the freakin' highway...gah, I'm starting again!

Besides the killer driving, today was quite nice...gots me a haircut, but since my cheap-o place is closed on sundays, I went to richmond barber...well worth the extra $5! Then, since I was in Richmond Centre, I walked past the bookstore, and realized that I could actually buy Harry Potter...don't want my sister to fall behind w/ the crowd! (And, uh, me too...u know, when I get a chance to read...and I do kinda wanna read Catch-22 still, it's been like 2 months already...)

Then I went home for a bit, caught half of family guy on ch. 131 (among doing other things), then went to pick up Alan at ubc, then my mom at work, then drove my mom home, then went off to white rock, where all that excitement happened...

So after watching a movie, we all went back to vancouver to some bubble tea (good ol' dragonball on oak and king ed.), hung out, etc etc...then I had to drive some more people home! Haha...alls the way in burnaby, but oh well it was a nice nostalgic trip down my old neck of the woods back when I was at BCIT...man, I miss wandering around the Crystal Mall...8+ different bubble tea shops to freakin' choose from! Hahaha...

Anyways, I've got work in less than 7 hours, so I better at least stop blogging, if not just get off the comp completly...

Until next time, I guess...


[Update, 1:15am - Stupid chatting...stupid commenting on something I shouldn't have commented on...stupid "wrong!" "It'll never work!" -type rebuttals...stupid "makes me feel hugged"...stupid everything...

stupid me...]

[Update, 1:30am - Well then, Undergrads cheered me right up...man, I'm tired...]

Sunday, July 17, 2005

More Schizo ramblings...

First and Foremost,


Sure, a little belated, but oh well...HOCKEY'S BACK!!! Well, technically there's the ratification and what not, but close enough!!!

And now for an odd little bit of trivia, here is what really got me engrossed into hockey:

http://nhl.com/onthefly/standings/conf_stand.html

Yeah...it's all about the numbers! Wooo, Canucks!


In other news, I feel like taking you guys through one of my personal fantasies:

Old English-Version Anime Song (You'll know what it is...)

When I think about the first time
I thought I found someone who cared for me
But things were not as they appeared to be

Rainy day man
On your shoulder I cried
When my first brush with love
Left me shaking inside
Rainy day man

Ever since I can remember
Just like a brother you've been strong and true
Always been the one to see me through

Rainy day man
You're much more than a friend
I would give anything
Just to see you again
Rainy day man

Always been the one to see me through

Rainy day man
On your shoulder I cried
When my first brush with love
Left me shaking inside

Rainy day man
You're much more than a friend
I would give anything
Just to see you again

Rainy day man
Rainy day man
Rainy day man
Rainy day man

Oh to be a Rainy Day man...



Friday, went back to work...man, working cutter is boring! Those who know, know...those who don't, I'm basically putting salmon fillets into huge spinning blades for 10 hrs a day now...just gotta keep saying "$12.50 and hour...overtime...$12.50 and hour...overtime"

The whole ordeal about leaving early to get to VBS, then proceeding to not be able to get to vancouver until 6:45 (hour + late) really ticked me off...but more in a frustration kinda way...

VBS was nice, though...wish I didn't do my tequila sunrises that week, then I could've actually done something in the mornings...well, besides schooling troubles, etc...



Speaking of schooling troubles, stupid tuition...it's gonna be freakin $8,000...don't think I could earn that much in the summer...meaning, no laptop/car/moving out for me...crap dangit...

But lets not linger on lack of possessions...



I'm going camping again next week, up to Camp Hope (annual SDA conference thing, which should be good in and of itself). Which made me think...at least this time I'm not gonna be the only guy in the group, with freakin' womens underwear dangling in front of my face...no, it's not as pleasant as it might sound you guys, heh...



Well then, went to Shar's blog recently, thought this'll be interesting to do...










Angel

Congratulations! You scored 74!

You're nice, kind, idealist and good. You watch for others and like to
be helpful, love is the purest form of bliss given to humanity and a
soul is the most important so that it must be well cared. You represent
the light side. The Yang side of nature. Life, light. Your goodness
makes you necessary for cosmic balance. Note that the higher your Score
Range, the more good you are, so, if your score is around 60, you're
perfectly nice but not too different from most people, but yet more
inclined to that side of reality. In the other hand, if your score
reaches one hundred for some reason... gods, maybe you are a real
angel. In a second note, if you're really HIGH in your score, just
remember not to sacrifice too much. You're way too special to go away
in a single burst, so watch yourself and good luck.
















My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 83% on angeldemon-dots




Link: The Angel or Demon Test written by arkb on Ok Cupid

--> Yes, confirmation that I AM a goody-goody! Or perhaps, the confirmation of my psychological wanting to be a goody-goody...either way, I'm happy I'm a 74 and not completely over the edge!

[Oh, and "mad props" to Shar for my blatant ripping off of the hr tag!]



That's about it...although I feel like I'm forgetting something, being that it's nearly 3am...

Until next time, I guess...

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Well then

Went to UBC today, wasn't able to increase my course limit...so, it seems I've got some choices to make.

So far, I've got Logic (3), Psych (3), and Religion (6). If I take Religion, since there's only like 15 spots left, there's a good chance I'll still be able to get Psych or Logic after Aug. 15th, when everyone's credit limit goes up to 35...but, I could just as easily take Logic and Psych instead of Religion, then have an extra 3 credits for something else...

Or, I could always learn Swedish! YEAH!! Heheh...[knowing that I suck at languages, probably not...]

Or, I could always take a course in Kwantlen! Wooo, Kwantlen!! ...

Anyways, I think I'll probably just stick w/ the religious study thing, gpa booster (hopefully), and get whatever's leftover after in aug...

Until next time, I guess...

[update, 12:23 AM - Man, now I'm seriously considering linguistics...it just seems so interesting, finding out how languages are born, how they work, etc etc...oh, and the psych course is definately out of the window...I mean, taking the same course as my sister is kinda annoying, since either one will end up w/ a better grade, with ridicule to follow...why risk it? Heheh...]

[update, 7:21 AM - Well, I couldn't sleep, so I decided to just watch tv until I register. After a couple of near-collapses around 6, I finally registered at 7. It wasn't as nerveracking as I expected, since I decided around 6:40 that I'll take RELG 205 as my elective, then LING 100 once my extra credits kicks in. If there's any spots left, of course. Anyways, I should be off to bed, gots me some VBS to go to tonight...]

Quickie

A short commentation about the goings on of the past while...past while meaning the past couple hours of msn convo, haha...

Reel Big Fish
"A Little Doubt Goes A Long Way"


I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something stupid
I gotta go
I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something lame

I know it's your fault that I’m in the mess I’m in
And you think I’m cool but I don’t man
Maybe its too soon but I think it's too late
And things like bad timing just won’t wait

Maybe it's not right (I have a girlfriend)
Made a friend tonight (who is a girl and)
I just wanted to talk you,
but then I started wondering if she's the one,
or not...

So I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something stupid
I gotta go
I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something lame

Maybe it's not right (I have a girlfriend)
Made a friend tonight (who is a girl and)
I just wanted to talk you,
but then I started wondering if she's the one,
or not...


I know that flirting is nothing and it should be where it ends
But I know yes I know that I want you for more than a friend

Maybe it's not right (I have a girlfriend)
Made a friend tonight (who is a girl and)
I just wanted to talk you but then I started wondering
Oh yes I started wondering if you're the one...

So I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something stupid
I gotta go
I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something lame

I gotta go, gotta go...before I do something stupid
I gotta go
But I know, I know that it's too late


Hey, you never know, it could be like this...
[okay, well probably not, but after the convo this song just popped into my head, hahaha...]

Until next time, I guess...

Monday, July 11, 2005

WHAT?!

Since when did UBC have a max cap on credits?! And I thought UBC was just another money grubber...stupid inability to take 37 credits...

I guess it's because they don't want u to hog all the courses, not fill them up, blah blah blah...

Considering most of my classes next year will be courses I've already taken (and have done fairly well on), not having more credits will make me slack off way to much...although, another slack year does sound appealing...then again, I don't wanna fall apart next year either...

Boo...I guess this means I won't be taking that "History of the Christian Church" course after all...six credits down, therefore I'll have 31, under the limit...but man, that would've so been my gpa booster (in theory, at least)...plus, it actually seemed kinda interesting...

***15 mins later***

Well then, it seems like I'm gonna have to talk to an advisor to see if I can raise my credit limit, meaning I'm going to go to the drop-in advising thingy tomorrow at 12:30...aw man, I'm gonna have to wake up early...alls the better, I guess.

I hope I don't start working 'til next week...oh man, that'd be such a hassle...esp. with VBS...oh crap, VBS, I gotta go soon!

Until next time, I guess...

Sunday, July 10, 2005

?

I'm still amazed how quickly my mood can change...'tis quick how rememberances of fun turned to rememberances of unfun, and when followed by the undertaking of unfun things, 'tis no good...

I'm still amazed how I can write only one sentence and sound like I'm rambling...

What a day...

If fun is measured by the amount of time it takes to recover, lets just say that I slept for about 12 hours yesterday...(normally I go about half that amount!)

From seeing Roger, to Richmond church's youth day thing, to practicing the VBS songs, to playing california kickball with a volleyball, to playing baseball in the sun for hours, to swinging on the bar to the dugout, to playing 2-strike volleyball, to hucking the disc around, to having a bunch of people come over to my place for dinner, to going to the uber-crowded night market, to driving people home (ranging from burnaby to ubc), to touring around ubc to find where my classes were, man it was a long-ass day! But man, was it ever fun!

And now I gots ta go to decorate the church for VBS

Until next time, I guess!

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Quick Update thingy

Just came back from the program at the Richmond church, and I must say it was fairly nice.

Plus, Roger was there! Friends with Leah, who pretty much put everything together for today...yes everyone, that Leah. Oooooo, etc etc...

Anyways, I'm off to my own Oakridge Adventist a.k.a. Vancouver Central to practice the songs we're doing for VBS all next week. Hmm, it's 10 to 3, and I have to be there at 3...late again, heheh...

Until next time, I guess...

(p.s., feelin' better than yesterday, as you could probably assume by my upbeat demeanor, heh...)

Friday, July 08, 2005

No Reason

I'm feelin' depressed, and I don't know why...tonight was not so fun for me, even though it should've been...

I don't know, tonight made me realize some things a little more clearly than before, perhaps because of my bad mood, I guess...

[------] - makes me feel inferior.
[------, -----] - make me feel like a boy.
[-------] - Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want (just annoying)
[--------, ------] - make me feel wrong.
[-----] - makes me feel like I'm taken for granted.
[------] - makes me weirded out.
[--------] - indirectly makes me feel left out.

Screw it, they all in some way make me feel left out. Sometimes.

Conversely...
[-----] - makes me feel hugged (don't know how to describe it).
[----] - makes me feel befriended.
[--------] - makes me feel good about myself.

This was a simple fill-in-the-blank, although I don't believe anyone should try to decipher, for most likely these people are not readers of my blog...'tis only for my displeasure. Sure, they don't always make me feel this way, but more often than not it ends up like this. Just really felt like putting it to paper, so to speak...

Hmmm, but why bad mood in first place...?

- The non-alcoholic tequila sunrises? a.k.a. strange sleeping habits?
- The lazing about all day playing video games?
- The crapload of greasy food I had for dinner?
- Knowing I'd be going to a place where I'd feel like I'm on the periphery?
- Perhaps a combination of / all of the above?

Alls I know is that even the lions winning the game tonight didn't cheer me up. Boo me.

Until next time, I guess...

--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

Interesting...

Past few days were pretty good...hapkido, always nice...I'm finding I'm getting much more into the groove now, so much so that I'm no longer averse to learning how to strike...

Tonight was fun as well, helping out w/ the paper mache at church for VBS...however, at times it was kinda annoying, and sometimes it feels like I'm taken for granted...I don't know, kinda hard to explain, I guess...

Crap, just read my friends screenname, and apparently it was Haig's bday party today...oh well, if I wasn't invited, I wasn't invited...

Anyways, I've got nothing better to do, so I think I'll actually do a survey thingy, which I normally detest, due to the exhorbant length of time to take such surveys...

(From Shar's Blog)
Body:
WOULD YOU RATHER:
1) pierce your nose or tongue?: Nose...6 months without spicy food?? ICK!
2) be serious or be funny?: serious (oddly enough...)
3) drink whole or skim milk?: skim...don't wanna feel like I'm drinking cream...

ARE YOU:
4) simple or complicated?: complicated

DO YOU PREFER:
5) flowers or angels? angels ... flowers die and angels can only be broken fallen
6) grey or gray: usually gray, I think...
7) color or black-and-white photos?: usually coloUr
8) lust or love?: definately love
9) sunrise or sunset?: sunrise, with the whole day ahead...i.e., not when you stayed up all night like I've been doing recently...
10) M&Ms or Skittles?: Skittles, unless I feel like chocolate (not as often)
11) rap or rock?: depends, leaning towards rock
12) staying up late or waking up early?: actually waking up early, but I usually stay up late...
13) TV or radio?: tv
14) eating apples or oranges? Oranges
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15) Do you have a crush?: no crushes, but many "potentials"
16) Who is it?: hahaha, if you're female and between the ages of 16-36, you're probably on it
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DO YOU PREFER:
17) being hot or cold?: hot, at least then I can breathe...
18) tall or short people? short...eye contact is easier to achieve (heh...)
19) sun or moon?: sun...the full moon is creepy, I always see this creepy guy staring back at me
20) emeralds or rubies?: emeralds
21) left or right? I say left...right handed, but I've got more dex. in my left
22) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?: one best friend
23) sun or rain?: definately sun (even w/ the sweet memories of streetball in the rain in sidaway)
24) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: vanilla
25) What is your biggest fear in the world?: rejection, of all sorts
26) Kids or no kids?: kids
27) Cat or dog?: dog
28) Half empty or half full?: why not just say half filled?! boggles my mind why this phrase continues...
29) Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup
30) Hard cover books or soft cover books?: soft cover
31) newspaper or magazine?: magazine, depending
32) Sandals or sneakers?: sneakers
33) Wonder or amazement?: wonder
34) Red car or white car?: white
35) Happy and poor or sad and rich? : happy and poor
36) Singing or dancing?: singing
38) Happy or sad?: happy
39) Blondes, brunettes?: all of the above, leaning towards brunettes
37) Hugging or kissing?: hugging, the kind where you just hold on for minutes at a time

ABOUT YOU:
What time is it?: 1:34am (dang, that's early...then again, only been awake for 11.5 hrs)
Nicknames: Nits, Nitsuj
Birthdate and place: May 9, 1984 - Vancouver, BC
Pets?: None
Eye color?: brown
Hair color?: dark brown (w/ product, black)

WHAT DO YOU WANT:
Do you want to get married? definately yes...I've been mentally ready for commitment for quite a while...financially, emotionally, spiritually, etc-ally, not so much...

WHICH IS BETTER:
2 doors or 4 (on a car)?: 4
coffee or ice cream?: ice cream
Shampoo or conditioner?: haha, memories of billy madison...
Bridges or tunnels?: tunnels
One pillow or two?: depends on thickness and sleep position; on stomach, <=1; on back/side, 1-2 depending on thickness FAVORITES: Salad dressing?: hard to say...although I'm leaning towards the vinegar ones Color of socks? mosly white, some grey I guess...oh, some black for dress shoes Non-alcoholic drink? hard one...don't really have preferences...milk, maybe? hehe... RANDOM: 1 minute ago: blogging, reading blogs 1 day ago: hapkido 1 week ago: in Jericho beach w/ friends 1 YEAR AGO: most likely playing video games and listening to emo all day... I AM: Wearing: green "pimp my ride" t-shirt; dark, paper-maché-glue spotted jeans Current Hair: bushy, dischevelled Current Smell: uh...deodorant? Current Favorite Show(s): no se... Current Book: stupid white men / catch 22 / many "For Better or for Worse" compilation comics Current Song: Reel Big Fish - We Hate It When Our Friends Become Successful Current Refreshment: Milk, heheh... -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Haha, I'm really liking that song by RBF, it's so funny...at first, I was like "what, that's crap!", but as it was with their last cd, it's grown sooo much on me! Besides, it's because of this song from a newgrounds animation that made me learn about their new cd and concert! Holy crap, I just learned that it's a cover of a Morrissey song! Hahaha, that makes it even more awesome!
Reel Big Fish
"We Hate It When Our Friends Become Successful"


[Originally by Morrissey]

We hate it when our friends become successful
We hate it when our friends become successful
Oh, look at those clothes
ah look at that face, its so cold
it's such a video, well
it's really laughable
Ah, ha, ha ...

We hate it when our friends become successful
And if they're No Doubt, that makes it even worse and
we can destroy them
You bet your life we will
destroy them
If we can hurt them
Well, we may as well ...
Its really laughable
Ah, ha, ha ...

You see it should've been me
could've been me
Everybody knows
Everybody says so
They say :

"ah, you have loads of songs
So many songs
More songs than they could stand
Verse
Chorus
Then they break away
Just listen ..."
La, la-la, la-la
just Listen!

[Horn Solo]

It's really laughable
Ah, ha, ha...

Monday, July 04, 2005

HOLY FREAKIN' CRAP!!!

RBF CONCERT IN JULY??? THAT'S FREAKIN' AWESOME!!!

Man, I didn't even know Reel Big Fish had a new cd out...what kind of fan am I?!

Sooo...anyone wanna come with?? I mean it's under $20, and it's gonna be the craziest concert you guys'll ever go to! What with the moshing, and the skanking, and the crowd surfing...man, it'll be SWEEEEET!!! July 29th, you guys!

...

I'm bored...but mostly lazy...

Freakin' Awesome Turnaround!

Well then, looking back at the last post, my days since then have just been spectacularly amazing! And since it has been a while since my last uber-boring stupidly-long post, I deem it necessary to create one for the awesomeness of the past few days! Reader beware, your in for a sc...bore!

First off, I did end up not going on Canada day, being that it was all cloudy and gloomy, plus the killer crowds etc...but I did end up going to the dairy queen on fraser (I believe) with my sisters and cousin, so that was nice and delicious to perk me up, especially playing Big 2 in the store while we ate (to kill time for the practice at 8:30)...plus, I saw Nardwar come in to the dairy queen, and that was pretty cool (at least we believe it was nardwar, hat and all, but we didn't wanna go up to him and ask or anything, that'd just be akward...)

Anyways, at the church practice I brought my new acoustic guitar -- my new guitar that I exchanged for an extra $300, that's leagues better than my other guitar, that's black with a blue burst (so it's cool), that's made by Yamaha and sounds amazing, etc etc -- yes, I brought my new guitar to church, to "test out the pickup" (but really because I wanted to play it there), and it was so nice that Uriel wanted to actually use it in the worship service, which I was more than happy to let him use...and man, that guitar really is good!

Church was this multicultural day kinda thing, with like 40 different countries from my church and celebrating diversity etc, so it was nice to see all the people dress up in their different cultural clothings (and Nicole and Krystle dressed up in sari's, haha...), plus the sweet sweet potluck with all the different dishes from around the globe (all vegetarian, which is amazing on top of everything), that was nummy...

After potluck we did some paper mache, vases for the VBS program we're doing next week (oh man, already next week! Oh, as in July 11-15 next week...), except I did jack squat while everyone else got their hands dirty...that was fun though, hanging out with everyone there...

After paper mache we then went our separate ways, so I went home, went on the comp for a bit, and being that it was already 6ish when I got home, I had to drive my mom to work...and since I was in vancouver once again, I decided to call everyone up! So after some people wrangling, we ended up at the park at Tisdall and 49th, and the awesomeness just cranked way up from then on in!

First off, we actually threw the disc around for quite a while! That was just amazingly awesome! Then was volleyball how-long-can-we-keep-it-going thing, then more disc throwing i.e. Jackpot...after that, we just lazed about for a bit, then Melvin and Uriel (I think) ended up in a wrestling match for some reason, and that leant itself for more wrestling and acrobatic fun (and no, it wasn't as gay as it sounds, heh...). There was the game where you're on your hands and feet, facing your opponent, trying to grab each others arms to get you unbalanced and tip over, that was fun...then there was the leg wrestling like the kind in P.E. that was actually kinda fun (besides the whole neckstrain thing of course)...then there was the flipping, which was interesting (with me always ending up sprawling on the ground, heheh)...and there was a whole buch more awesome stuff, of which I cannot remember...oh, plus a late game of Gato! Yeah!!

Anyways, after the park we all decided to go to Bubble Tea on Oak and King Edwards (dragon ball, I think), and that was a riot...there ended up being this pearl-spitting war going on, with everyone spitting bubbles at each other (well, not everone, but enough to be embarrassing in the shop)...yeah, it was kinda disgusting, but it was hilariously awesome at the time...then, when we were outside, Krystle decided to spit another bubble at Daniel...however, being that she sucked it from the straw and released it quickly, mango slush flew all over Daniel! Man, it was hilarious and disgusing to the extreme! Haha, then Daniel chased Krystle, and more hilarity ensued...after that fiasco, we all went our separate ways once again and called it a night...

Today, being Sunday, I went with my uncle and Tim and Alvin, my close-aged cousins, to lunch at Enthuze in Yaletown, which was quite nice...although the beef-strip salad thing did have peanuts (without putting it on the menu, bad restaurant!), I got myself some green curry red snapper, and man was that ever delicious! Man, my uncle's taken me to so many different awesome restaurants...Tim and Alvin seem to be doing quite nicely, so that's good to know...

Anyways, I got home around 2:30, and that's when the excitement began...you see, I had free tickets to the Whitecaps game tonight, so I had to wrangle up some of my friends to come, which ended up being harder than I expected...phoned Rob first, since we hadn't done anything on our week off of work together, but couldn't get a hold of him...then kris, but he couldn't come...them I phoned Mohsin, and he was an 80% in, heheh...so two down (incl. me), and 2 to go...then I phoned a whole whack of other people and none of them could go...I even called freakin' Abraham, but he couldn't make it either, lol...so I decided to call Rob again, got a hold of him, and he said he could come! Nice, 3 down, one to go...so then I tried Shar, hoping she was back from camping, and by golly she was! And she could come to! So after a crapload of trying to get people to come, I just got rob and shar like that! Niice...

So I lazed about a bit until my parents came back from shopping, then went to pick up Rob and Shar (meeting mohsin at Swanguard), so we drove up to Kingsway and Boundary...man I love driving...so after some parking lot fiascos, we ended up parking on Boundary on the side of the Telus building, which is awesome 'cause I saved seven bucks in parking! So I told mohsin about the free parking, then we met up at the gate...

We saw the Whitecaps women's team face off against the Seattle Sounders, and man did the Whitecaps ever show why they were North American champions last year! They freakin' won 4-0!! That freakin' increadible! I mean, it's soccer for crying out loud! 0-0 games are common! Needless to say, watching the soccer game was niice...plus, some of my Kwantlen friends got to see some of my church friends, which was cool...plus, the bubble tea afterwards at Mohsin's Bubble World was quite nice, with the 3 kwantleners plus Krystle Uriel Daniel and Melvin all hanging out...that was a blast...mmmm, lychee slush with lemon jelly, mohsin was right in saying it was the best...

And there you have it, my ultra-low after that weirdass dream making an incredible turnaround into one of the best weekends ever! Awesomeness, indeed...

Until next time, I guess...

[p.s. - I've been a lazy bastard in posting up my bloglinks, so if it bugs you that you're not up, send me a scathing comment and I'll comply]

Friday, July 01, 2005

Man, This Sucks

Just had a crazy non-scary nightmare, the kind that just makes you feel horrible...

I made a good friend cry, and I had no idea why...

Oh gawd, she cried in the same manner as my ex...crap, that sucks...

Me: "I guess I'm gonna have to sit with you then" [on the schoolbus]
Friend: "I don't think that'll be a good idea" [tearing up]
Me: "You sure? 'Cause Kris wants to sit in the back and there's not much room there and oh man you're crying yeah of course I'll go oh crap I'm sorry for whatever it was I did oh crap oh crap..."

That just sucks...plus, it's making me not wanna go out to the salmon festival, and especially not to see my old band perform...especially if it means risking bumping into my ex...*shudder*

Anyways, happy Canada Day and all that, hopefully I'll feel better in an hour when I phone Kris...just gonna tell him that I'm not going anymore...that sucks, I was actually really looking forward to this, but oh well...perhaps a shower will clear my head or something...

Until next time, I guess...