Nits was here...

Woke up super late today, like past one, then got to school by 2 to catch the anime...which made me realize a few things...

But first things first, to comment on the comments:

1) 'Tis not pride that stops me, 'tis fear...irrational fear of flubbing up, for I know that's what I do when nervous...which is kinda ironic, since for me, the ability to actually talk to the girl is a big factor in falling for her...even so, I know I have to push past this fear and continue onwards [i.e. like first day of BCIT, but that's another story]...

2) As for the practice-what-you-preach-type comments, yes, I do realize the hyprocrisy of my actions...that's partially why I got so bummed out, cause I knew what I had to do, but I just didn't do it...I don't know, maybe it was the lack of sleep or what not, but my head didn't seem in the right place last night, obviously...

3) I know I'm losing quite a bit from wimping out, even for just saying hi, and yet I do nothing...it seems that I do not learn from experience, either...over the span of the past 6 months, I've consistenly wimped out on this kind of thing...

Anyways, continuing along in this vein of conversation, there is something I realized today while at anime. I realized that the reason why I wimp out so much is the fact that I don't know these girls well enough yet...kinda roundabout, since I'm saying that I can't get to know them because I don't know them yet...

But according to this, it'd be kinda hard to for me to find new friends, since I'm only comfortable talking around my friends...and yet, I've made friends easily enough, even outside the 3rd floor crew...such as jimmy, enrique, etc from bcit, and abraham, jimmy, etc from kwantlen...so I don't know, maybe it's just a different case with women, or maybe I'm just making up excuses reasons why I lack follow-through...

Even so, today at anime I didn't feel like I even wanted to have a girlfriend anymore...ahhhhh, so there ya go, that's the big point to make...don't want to have them as girlfriends, just friends...

Heh...sounds familiar, it's best to be friends before lovers...kinda ironic, I really must not practice what I preach, 'cause I realized this AGES ago...this was one of the first topics I freakin' talked about on my blog, no doubt...

But yes, maybe less focus on the hopings, and more focus on just talking to them...that'd be good...

But screw that! Why restrict myself?!? I must talk to everyone, and try to be friends with everyone! Burst outta my shell and start to live my life without hesitation!!! YEEAHHHHH!!! Heheh...

So in conclusion, even though I had regressed back to my elementary/early high-school personality, it seems that I have moved on into my new-start-at-BCIT personality...perhaps this time, I'll continue to grow without any more regression, hahaha...

Until next time, I guess...

--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.