Sunday, February 13, 2005

Holy Crap...

Holy crap, I'm friggin' Mr. Procrastinator, right here...gotta do 3 friggin' papers by monday! Holy crap, holy crap, holy crap! And I'm friggin' tired!!!

Stupid friggin' food allergies, stupid movies, stupid using every single excuse to procrastinate that I can! It's friggin' past 1:30am sat. night! Holy crap, holy crap! I'm not gonna make it!!!

I can't believe I didn't do it yet either...could've gone home early wed., but stupidly didn't and wasted all my time...so thurs. I rebuked my friends and my foosball and went home early, only to watch 7 episodes of buffy in a row! Fri.? Same thing! Stupid friggin' buffy...

And today, nearly exact same thing! Came home from church, stomach all in knots after eating some weird sandwich spread thing I was allergic to, feeling like crap, which made me complacent and sprawl on the couch all afternoon watching sports clips and movies and basketball and hockey and food channel and whatever else I could watch to procrastinate...including watching friggin Dark Oracle on YTV! Friggin lame-ass kids show that I probably enjoyed while watching until I realized that it was past midnight when it ended!

And now, instead of hunkering down to doing my friggin papers, I've wasting time friggin blogging! I'm a horrible person! BAH!!!

Stupid everything...heh, undergrads...

BAAAHHHH!!! I don't wanna start yet...whine whine, etc etc...

Holy crap, I'm friggin' tired...but I won't sleep until I get at least one essay finished! Lets see, psych seems easiest being only a summary of an article...then english should be next, even though that'll probably be the hardest, 'cause of the stupid poetry thingy and not having even chosen a friggin' poem yet, stupid me and my forgetting to do this...and then there's the freakin' phil paper, which should be fairly straightforward, being that the topic and method of writing is all layed out section by section; however, phil paper's worth 20%, engl is 15%, and psych is 10%, which suggests that my order is kinda backwards...but then again, engl and psych is due on monday, while phil is due on tuesday, so then I should definately have monday's finished first, therefore having my previous order fit better...so to sum up, I'm off to do my psych summary paper thingy!!!

Crap, I haven't even read the friggin article yet...gotta print it out still...craaappp....

Not yet. Still don't feel ready. BAAAHHH!!!

Okay, well I'm gonna print it now then...

Which reminds me...stupid printer not being able to print things out clearly anymore, with the stupid blurring, and the having to press the button every time to print, and the having to put the printed page back in to print the last few lines 'cause I forced it to print, and the always being crooked 'cause I had to print it over again...BAAHHHH!!!

Hmmm, on the plus side, the article is called "EFFECTS OF VIOLENT VIDEO GAMES ON AGGRESSIVE BEHAVIOR, AGGRESSIVE COGNITION, AGGRESSIVE AFFECT, PHYSIOLOGICAL AROUSAL, AND PROSOCIAL BEHAVIOUR: A Meta-Analytic Review of the Scientific Literature." Yes, it is seriously this long...but the point is this: at least it's fairly interesting! Haha...

Oh wait, review of scientific literature?? Crap, this sounds like the kind of thing my teacher told me not to do...stupid not reading the article before I got her to approve it...even more so, stupid not even finishing reading the title!

And I'm still printing it out...it's only seven pages, but it's taking forever! Might as well start reading the pages I already printed out while I wait...

Haha, great, talking w/ Reuben 'bout how he saw my old band play tonight, and now we're talkin up a storm now...not that I mind, but it is kinda distracting, lol...

Heh, 2:30am now, still talking to Reuben, but I'm enjoying it profusely...haha, karmacanix talk...and yes, Reuben agrees, Trevor also reminds him of Napoleon Dynamite!

Holy crap, it's 3am, Reuben went to bed, and here I am looking at the Karmacanix website...and what do I see, or, not see?? The recordings of me singing are down! GAAHHH! Oh well, I was surprised they kept it on for so long...but oh well, I still gots my copies on my comp! So now I'm listening to those things now! Instead of doing my work, or even finishing reading my freakin' article!!! HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP!!!

At least it's printed...And now, listenting to my old recordings, I realize that I didn't sound half bad...I used to be so embarrased about those songs, 'cause I knew I could've done better, but now it's sounding fairly awesome! Maybe I was being too hard on myself before, or maybe listening to it brings back old memories, and the nostalgia has giving me rose-coloured glasses, or earmuffs, or whatever...earmuffs? what the heck? Time for slee CRAP! I can't sleep yet!!!

Wow, I'm gonna get off this friggin distraction right now...hopefully I won't become a zombie with the lack of sleeping and all...

Until next time, I guess...

--> As told through the mind of an introverted extrovert.

[p.s. - Just started talking to Moe...haha, nuts...so much for getting down to business...stupid always going for every little procrastination I can go for!!!]

[Edit (past 5am) - Decided to just stop with the whole trying to finish a paper tonight, esp. since I'm so out of it right now...therefore, I've decided to just set up everything so that I'll be able to write my papers super quick tomorrow...see, with the rampant ungrammariness, better to leave it to tomorrow...and by setting up I mean title page, references, and what not...bah, no more rambling, must be sleepy...but still have to set up phil paper...stupid interesting poem, bah...]

[Edit (next day, 1am) - Just thought I'd continue here, despite already having another posting...whining 'bout papers kinda unrelated to valentines day poetry stuff...anyways, just wanted to post that I've finally finished one paper, except now I'm feeling very rambunctuous and not really wanting to focus onto my other papers...that sucks...but oh well, I'm gonna go video clipping on the net, with newgrounds, ebaums, kontraband, etc as the likely destinati - what the heck, my sister just gave me a bowl of leftover melted chocolate from her cake! Awesomeness!!! That'll keep me going tonight...haha, hopefully I'm still hypersensitive enough to the caffeine that it'll keep me awak - holy crap, my sis just came back saying that she can mix strawberry whipped cream in with the leftover chocolate! AWESOMENESS!!! Anyways, I'm off!]

[Edit (next day, 4:30am) - Holy crap, I'm a freakin' idiot! I have crossed the line between procrastination and just plain idiocy! I've spent the last 3 and a half hours freakin watching videos! That's horrible! And now I'm so frickin' tired that I wanna fall over, but I can't go to sleep, for fear of waking up at 2pm without having my english paper done! That's horrible! I'm horrible! GAAAHHHH!!! And yet I blog...to release the stored tension, I guess...which is strange, since I sound all super worried and hyper, but in reality I'm just blankly staring at my screen and typing away...and now I'm just rambling 'cause I'm so friggin tired...maybe I should go to bed, wake up around 11ish...but that's kinda pushing it fairly close...I'll try my best with the paper now, but if it turns out to be crap, I won't hesitate to leave and go to bed...yeah, that sounds good...bah, I'm stupid...]

[Edit (next day, 5:42am) - Wow, I'm actually getting a bunch of work done, and all because I picked a poem that I could really connect with, and interesting to boot. It's taken my sleepiness and shoved it onto the backburner, while sparking much insight into how I should write my essay. However, this poses a problem, because whenever I think up genious in my mind, the words I thought up usually dissipate by the time I write them onto the page...meaning, it sounds a lot better in my head :-) but anyways, back to my essay!]

[Edit (next day, 10:30am) - Oh man, I'm finally finished my english essay...I'm so wiped, I spent the last 3 hours trying to finish off the last little bit...it's so sunny, but alls I wanna do is sleep...so gnite yous guys and all that...]

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