Saturday, April 14, 2007

Church, or lack thereof...

I don't feel integrated at church.

I'm contemplating going elsewhere for a while.

That is all.


Anonymous val. said...

HEY! ME TOO! lets all go. hahahahaha.

9:00 p.m.  
Blogger Rohbit said...

As in a different sect of christianity or a different 7th day adventist church?

9:44 p.m.  
Blogger bj_nitsuj said...

Reuben, more of the latter. Although, as I've said before, I'm not averse to going to other churches. In the 3-odd years I've known you guys, I've yet to be invited. But it's not like you guys are overly-spiritual, so I'm not surprised.

Valen, I can't tell sarcasm from not, and I'm not going to try. But at face value, I have no idea why you'd feel that way. You've got WAY more friends at church than I do.

"Friends" - In this church context, people who, upon seeing you, would go up to you, ask how your week went, talk about similar interests, talk about personal issues, and generally be able to "hang out" with. Using this definition, you've got more friends at church than you can count on both hands.

I can honestly say that there is nobody at church that does this with me.

And it doesn't help that you guys are SOOO CLIQUEY.

"Cliquey" - Talking amongst yourselves in such a way that makes it difficult for others to join the conversation.

And that's just one example of cliquishness. I could go on, but I think you get the picture.

But don't get me wrong, this isn't a shot at anybody in particular. Everyone's to blame for the cliquishness.

The worst part about all this is, the whole point of church (i.e., fellowship with God) is now lost on me. I haven't felt spiritually fulfilled in months. I feel the same when I play in church as I do when I play in Zombie Battalion. The only time I've even been close to feeling something again was at the last JAYA when I sang. I'd ask to sing more, but I'm needed elsewhere, so it'd be selfish of me NOT to play. I guess I put the spiritual wellbeing of others above my own.

And one last thing. Valen, if you ARE serious about leaving, no, I won't go with you. Not since the last time. I haven't felt that left out since I was three, reaching for the balloon. But I wouldn't be surprised if you missed that post. (s).

I mean, didn't you find it weird that I purposely avoided you guys at that deer lake thing? I can handle being alone. I CAN'T handle knowing that I'm being left out.

So no. If I do end up going elsewhere, I'll go to the Richmond church. At least there's Leah and Roger, who I know are friends.

...that is all.

12:21 a.m.  
Anonymous val. said...

i dont remember the dls thing. and the friends thing has nothing to do with it.

10:23 a.m.  

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